As a fren would decribe himself landing on a plateau...and so would I describe this weekend. =)
It started with a nice dinner at a quaint jap place with Clare. Was blessed by the tranquility of the place and the company of Clare. To be able to share with her some of the stuffs that has been crazy at home, and also hearing from her how the Lord has led her through the year.
Saturday we had day of prayer at church, and we spent the whole afternoon praying for missions and missionaries. My heart was encouraged by Pastor Ed's msg on sowing our seed with tears- that even when we think what we have is very little, God can use what little that we have. Heh...yah...and after the prayer I proceeded to meet HY, and we went to Sentosa together! Had some food vouchers from my mum, and so I asked HY out for dinner & some drinks to chill out at Sentosa. Wow Sentosa has changed a lot, it really looks like a little island resort now. We stumbled upon Jazz at the Beach, where we sat down with drinks and some finger food listening to jazz. =) It was again a heartening night spent together, where we shared our fears, problems, blessings, joys and encouraged one another by our journeys. I'm thankful...and thankful that HY is on a new journey in her life as well.
Today- sunday, had nurturing session with 2 new believers, and I am really growing to enjoy this more. =) Its such a blessing and privilege to serve God in this manner, and to see how He is working within individual lives. Both were touched by God during easter service and committed their lives to God. And after that the sermon just added on, as Pastor Tony shared abt some issues he struggled with as a leader. This very open sharing ressonated in my heart and encouraged me a great deal- esp the part on performance trap. I am so thankful that God has brought me to this church, tho I still need to adjust to certain things like raising of hands and not speaking in tongues during service, but I am assured that the inward change is much more important than the outward forms. Something really is right abt the way this church functions, servant leadership, and allowing God to move so freely in individual lives..everyday hearing wonderful testimonies from people.
Had lunch with the cell and hanged out after that too.... =) Thankful and enjoyed myself today. Tho now I am feeling a bit sleepy. haha. But I shall enjoy this plateau time afterall. At peace and restedness with God.
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
The Mountains...
Was watching the HK drama on Sunday, and there was this lady doct who went to the mountains to take a break, and there she met a doct who was serving the community there, and also opened a clinic to treat the villagers there. They received vegetables and chicken eggs all the time for treating them for free.
I wanna retreat to the mountains! Where I can stare into the sky, and look at the seas, and be with the villagers.
Sometimes, I wonder if this desire is merely a desire to escape from this city, where buildings get increasingly cluttered, and demands of time & resources clog out spaces around me.
I wanna retreat to the mountains! Where I can stare into the sky, and look at the seas, and be with the villagers.
Sometimes, I wonder if this desire is merely a desire to escape from this city, where buildings get increasingly cluttered, and demands of time & resources clog out spaces around me.
Monday, April 23, 2007
A mother
Have been reading John & Stasi Elderedge's Captivating: Unveiling the Mystery of a Woman's Soul. One portion is on Mothers. So just a short ode to my mother.
"I have heard it said that having a child is like having your heart walk around outside of your body. How a mother aches to protect her child. And yet all the while, from infancy to adulthood, a good mother is training her child to move ever more away from her, to need her less and less. Mothers love and long for their children. Their hearts ache for them, over them...
In those eyes, I saw the depth of my mother's love for me. It was measureless, vast, unconditional, tender, deep, strong, joyful and clear. You could dive into eyes like that; get lost in that kind of love. Or be found.
Finally I understood. My mother loved me. She had loved me during those years; I just hadn't seen it. There was grace in her eyes and a knowing that all was well, that all would be well."
Unknowingly, a mother loves her children more than any friend would.
"I have heard it said that having a child is like having your heart walk around outside of your body. How a mother aches to protect her child. And yet all the while, from infancy to adulthood, a good mother is training her child to move ever more away from her, to need her less and less. Mothers love and long for their children. Their hearts ache for them, over them...
In those eyes, I saw the depth of my mother's love for me. It was measureless, vast, unconditional, tender, deep, strong, joyful and clear. You could dive into eyes like that; get lost in that kind of love. Or be found.
Finally I understood. My mother loved me. She had loved me during those years; I just hadn't seen it. There was grace in her eyes and a knowing that all was well, that all would be well."
Unknowingly, a mother loves her children more than any friend would.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
:/ Blah.
Not a very good way to start a saturday amidst yelling betw sis and mum, and mum and dad... and mum ending up in tears. :/ If I can say, it is a BLAH day. Sis mopped the floor in spite of sickness...mum picked on details of the cleaning..trying to pass on some skills of mopping floor. And so the yelling began while I hang the clothes. Felt like crying seeing the huge pile of clothes unironed again, all lumped onto the ironing board.
So feeling quite bleah...just finished washing the toilets. :-) Afternoon is more ironing to do. Sigh. Patience is the fruit of the spirit.
Went for dinner yest night with my Houses of Hope mates, and a farewell to one of us who just quit the company. Quite proud of him, taking a pay cut for what he really wanted to do. =) We had chicken rice at Princep Street and then went for some drinks at Loof. Its a cosy nice place opposite chimes. Talked abt HDB flats and engagement rings. 400K for a four room flat...More than 10 K for a 1 carat ring. :/
So feeling quite bleah...just finished washing the toilets. :-) Afternoon is more ironing to do. Sigh. Patience is the fruit of the spirit.
Went for dinner yest night with my Houses of Hope mates, and a farewell to one of us who just quit the company. Quite proud of him, taking a pay cut for what he really wanted to do. =) We had chicken rice at Princep Street and then went for some drinks at Loof. Its a cosy nice place opposite chimes. Talked abt HDB flats and engagement rings. 400K for a four room flat...More than 10 K for a 1 carat ring. :/
Anyway here's a photo we took! :)
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Who is Jesus?
I've been trying to answer that question throughout the past 2 weeks or so. One of the triggers was a cell group meeting, we were studying inductive bible study methods, and we used John 4 as the text. Part of it was to come up with outlines by breaking up the verses, the next part was to ask questions about the text. One of the cg members asked "Who is Jesus?" My immediate reaction was a laugh- what a question! Jesus is son of God...Jesus is the messiah, the Christ and so on and so on...until the question went down from the brain and slowly I digested the profound meaning behind it..
Gab said, the questions we asked reflected our r/s with God. How true....and as I began to ponder on that, I remembered something that C said to me...that who Jesus was to me, affected my r/s with him and loads of other things. I started reading those words in the bible in red more carefully (Words that Jesus spoke were in red), and ....I realised who was the Jesus I knew...
He was a righteous God, He was the messiah, He was the healer, He carried an air of authority with Him...thats what I knew of Him.
But really...I always thought that Jesus was not very polite.....and sometimes too straightforward...sometimes maybe.....underneath, I wondered if this Jesus cared....
I re-read the red words with new perspectives, and suddenly, I also saw the Jesus who was kind, the Jesus who was loving....and the Jesus who loved the marginalised.
I see Him with new light.
He is the source of living water...He is sensitive to our needs, and He meets us at where we are. This is the wonderful saviour.
I used to think that Jesus takes things that we like....I used to think that it was painful....
And now I realise that this Jesus, takes things out of our life, to give us even better things...
This is the Jesus I serve. =)
Gab said, the questions we asked reflected our r/s with God. How true....and as I began to ponder on that, I remembered something that C said to me...that who Jesus was to me, affected my r/s with him and loads of other things. I started reading those words in the bible in red more carefully (Words that Jesus spoke were in red), and ....I realised who was the Jesus I knew...
He was a righteous God, He was the messiah, He was the healer, He carried an air of authority with Him...thats what I knew of Him.
But really...I always thought that Jesus was not very polite.....and sometimes too straightforward...sometimes maybe.....underneath, I wondered if this Jesus cared....
I re-read the red words with new perspectives, and suddenly, I also saw the Jesus who was kind, the Jesus who was loving....and the Jesus who loved the marginalised.
I see Him with new light.
He is the source of living water...He is sensitive to our needs, and He meets us at where we are. This is the wonderful saviour.
I used to think that Jesus takes things that we like....I used to think that it was painful....
And now I realise that this Jesus, takes things out of our life, to give us even better things...
This is the Jesus I serve. =)
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Rays of distant sunshine
I had the opportunity to talk to the head of a social org yesterday. I was glad for the talk as the questions he asked me, and the comments he made caused me to ponder about my role and the things I really wanted to do. I said I wanted to bridge the gap between business and social sector. One of the things he asked was how I intended to do that, and what did I think was the gap? I talked abt diff language spoken by the 2 sectors, and the need for a mediator. Anyway he asked me how I would present a social cause to the heads of a corporate, which I said I will use photos of sad/ thin children and tell stories abt them, and also share that there was more meaning to life that pursuing their work & ambitions. He said that this sounded like the lang of a social org used, and not a business lang. A business lang- is something like telling the business ple for every dollar they donate, it went to help X no. of people have education etc etc.
I realise this so-called business language is something I don't like. In fact, I loathe sticking social ideals into returns and figures and efficiency. =P Oh dear, I am afterall very un-business like. But upon thinking thru in a deeper manner, I guess having experience in the corporate sector helps me to know how corporates work. And also I have a network of influence on my contacts. This ripple effect hopefully creates awareness amongst people around me.
So what do I really want? To be the facilitator, or to be on the ground being able to talk to and mingle with the needy? Well I really don't know!
But for the first time in 2 years, almost, I actually felt glad being where I was, at my job. And I feel at rest. I don't feel I am shortchanging myself, don't feel I should be anywhere else helping starving children, or leaving singapore right now. I don't think it is cos my passion to help them has waned, if any, it has only increased right there in the heart. Perhaps, this passion has been tutored with realism, and surrounded with the peace of God. Knowing that He has guided me, and will continue to guide me in the right place at the right time to do the right thing.
I had the opportunity to meet up with a 19 year old gal today, who is a new believer, for bible study. And I felt so touched when she prayed, and said thank God for bringing someone to teach her about Him, as she always wanted someone to guide her along. I wonder how many there are out there who want guidance? In an amazing way, God placed her in my path, and I can't tell u how encouraging that is. I know He knew my heart for the youths, and ya....I can see a rainbow again...I can see a vision again...even if it is a glimpse of sunshine from afar...it seems as if I am moving nearer. If only I will continue to press on and trust in His lovingkindness.
Amazingly met JW today while queuing up for jap octopus balls at Taka, he was right in front of me. In the first place, hardly anyone eats lunch at 330pm, and to specifically want to eat Taka octopus balls is a divine appt. =) Grateful for the short chat once again and JW for succintly summarizing the possibilities of my future. To speak to businessmen- creating awareness and need for social responsibility. To speak to Christians, presenting to them the needs of the poor and encouraging them into social action. Ya, social action shd be part of the church. ;)
It was good dinner on friday night too! Having dinner with the girls, celebrating Q and J's birthday. ;) Nice jap food and cosy place to be at! :)
I realise this so-called business language is something I don't like. In fact, I loathe sticking social ideals into returns and figures and efficiency. =P Oh dear, I am afterall very un-business like. But upon thinking thru in a deeper manner, I guess having experience in the corporate sector helps me to know how corporates work. And also I have a network of influence on my contacts. This ripple effect hopefully creates awareness amongst people around me.
So what do I really want? To be the facilitator, or to be on the ground being able to talk to and mingle with the needy? Well I really don't know!
But for the first time in 2 years, almost, I actually felt glad being where I was, at my job. And I feel at rest. I don't feel I am shortchanging myself, don't feel I should be anywhere else helping starving children, or leaving singapore right now. I don't think it is cos my passion to help them has waned, if any, it has only increased right there in the heart. Perhaps, this passion has been tutored with realism, and surrounded with the peace of God. Knowing that He has guided me, and will continue to guide me in the right place at the right time to do the right thing.
I had the opportunity to meet up with a 19 year old gal today, who is a new believer, for bible study. And I felt so touched when she prayed, and said thank God for bringing someone to teach her about Him, as she always wanted someone to guide her along. I wonder how many there are out there who want guidance? In an amazing way, God placed her in my path, and I can't tell u how encouraging that is. I know He knew my heart for the youths, and ya....I can see a rainbow again...I can see a vision again...even if it is a glimpse of sunshine from afar...it seems as if I am moving nearer. If only I will continue to press on and trust in His lovingkindness.
Amazingly met JW today while queuing up for jap octopus balls at Taka, he was right in front of me. In the first place, hardly anyone eats lunch at 330pm, and to specifically want to eat Taka octopus balls is a divine appt. =) Grateful for the short chat once again and JW for succintly summarizing the possibilities of my future. To speak to businessmen- creating awareness and need for social responsibility. To speak to Christians, presenting to them the needs of the poor and encouraging them into social action. Ya, social action shd be part of the church. ;)
It was good dinner on friday night too! Having dinner with the girls, celebrating Q and J's birthday. ;) Nice jap food and cosy place to be at! :)
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Kindness
I was supposed to have some meetings this morning....but they were cancelled! So I have the whole morning to catch up with my work. And thought of blogging just a short note. ;)
Was reading a fren's blog and she was talking abt ple asking her abt what she wanted for a bf, which she said "good christian boy". This triggered some thoughts that I 'd been thinking abt too. Hmm.. realise how I was sorely missing being asked about my life- whether mundane aspects or bigger things like career. But not just anyone, someone who cares and remembers what I had said in the past, to ask the correct questions and who makes me comfortable to share. Realised that when my colleague drove me home, and when we started talking, I just felt so relieved to share some of the things that I've been thinking about. And ya, I felt like it was therapy. Thank God for this short ride home and for this sense of connection that I feel. Which made me realise what I really want in a mate, is someone who will listen to me! Someone who is patient enough to listen, caring enough to remember what I have spoken, and ya...it brings to mind what the Soul-to-Soul singer Sharon said- she realised what she needed was someone who was kind.
Was reading a fren's blog and she was talking abt ple asking her abt what she wanted for a bf, which she said "good christian boy". This triggered some thoughts that I 'd been thinking abt too. Hmm.. realise how I was sorely missing being asked about my life- whether mundane aspects or bigger things like career. But not just anyone, someone who cares and remembers what I had said in the past, to ask the correct questions and who makes me comfortable to share. Realised that when my colleague drove me home, and when we started talking, I just felt so relieved to share some of the things that I've been thinking about. And ya, I felt like it was therapy. Thank God for this short ride home and for this sense of connection that I feel. Which made me realise what I really want in a mate, is someone who will listen to me! Someone who is patient enough to listen, caring enough to remember what I have spoken, and ya...it brings to mind what the Soul-to-Soul singer Sharon said- she realised what she needed was someone who was kind.
Friday, April 06, 2007
Thankful fullstop
So glad that today is a friday, which means I have 2 more days of rest. The stressful periods have come to a fullstop...and it doesn't look that bad going forward. :) It has been a mad few weeks. My research paper is finishing, now just doing touch-up. Handed in counseling psych assignment last week too. Now I'm left with housework. But that seems much more surmountable.
Met up with Kat just now, and was so glad to be able to share with her. And amazed by how similar our backgrounds were. ;) Just feel comfortable...and yah, feel so blessed and loved to have someone "taking care" of me from now on. Heh heh. Went to visit the youth service at church today, and yah...have many thoughts running thru my head. Basically also amazed at some of the similarities with CHC. And haha...it has been a long long journey that God has brought me thru. Thankful to JW for sending me home, and being able to relate on how we felt abt the youth service, coming from similar backgrounds as well.
I finally found the freedom to object to certain norms, and not worrying about being accepted. Hmm. I guess people are generally more accepting then I thought too! ;P And generally people also have their own views, and being honest about our views helps to challenge each other...rather than keeping it to myself....
Yeah...So tmr is a whole day @ home! Will need to do hsework...but lookg forward to waking up at 10am and having a slow breakfast, reading the papers.....and in the afternoon a walk by the beach talking to God. :)
Met up with Kat just now, and was so glad to be able to share with her. And amazed by how similar our backgrounds were. ;) Just feel comfortable...and yah, feel so blessed and loved to have someone "taking care" of me from now on. Heh heh. Went to visit the youth service at church today, and yah...have many thoughts running thru my head. Basically also amazed at some of the similarities with CHC. And haha...it has been a long long journey that God has brought me thru. Thankful to JW for sending me home, and being able to relate on how we felt abt the youth service, coming from similar backgrounds as well.
I finally found the freedom to object to certain norms, and not worrying about being accepted. Hmm. I guess people are generally more accepting then I thought too! ;P And generally people also have their own views, and being honest about our views helps to challenge each other...rather than keeping it to myself....
Yeah...So tmr is a whole day @ home! Will need to do hsework...but lookg forward to waking up at 10am and having a slow breakfast, reading the papers.....and in the afternoon a walk by the beach talking to God. :)
Holiday Yay!
heh. Day and Yay rhymes! So glad that its a public holiday tmr. Finally can get a good sleep. :) :) :) heh...been lookg forward to this day.
Eh...just thot I will share something happy...like I just met up with Diana and had a cuppa camomile tea with her. Miss the group of my cell mbrs! :( Been so long since I met up with you guys. So it was a cosy short meeting up.
Met up last weekend too with my JC classmates! :) Been such a long long time and everyone has matured! heh. Couldn't help but point out that some of my male classmates have matured! Gosh, they were anxious and worried about Eu's mildly scalded hand and trying to look for plasters and ice cubes. Haha.
Hmm...Got one last comment to make though. Reading newspapers today abt ministers pay (again!) and one of the things that MM said struck me, in response to how ministers shd be willing to sacrifice - he said "we live in a real world".
How about social workers pay? I think social workers are a whole lot who shd have their pay reviewed, cos same arguement that social workers shd be willing to sacrifice. But look, we live in a real world!
I also think abt the marginal utility of money. If u are earning 1 million a year, will earning 2 million a year give u extra joy? I wonder.
Ravi Zacharias said smething today (might be paraphrased wrongly)- that often people are depressed not because of suffering. But when they don't find happiness in what they enjoy doing...or thought they would enjoy doing. Have u ever felt that maybe so much money doesn't make u happy if u don't have someone to share camomile tea with?
Its getting late and I'm getting incoherent. Nights!
Eh...just thot I will share something happy...like I just met up with Diana and had a cuppa camomile tea with her. Miss the group of my cell mbrs! :( Been so long since I met up with you guys. So it was a cosy short meeting up.
Met up last weekend too with my JC classmates! :) Been such a long long time and everyone has matured! heh. Couldn't help but point out that some of my male classmates have matured! Gosh, they were anxious and worried about Eu's mildly scalded hand and trying to look for plasters and ice cubes. Haha.
Hmm...Got one last comment to make though. Reading newspapers today abt ministers pay (again!) and one of the things that MM said struck me, in response to how ministers shd be willing to sacrifice - he said "we live in a real world".
How about social workers pay? I think social workers are a whole lot who shd have their pay reviewed, cos same arguement that social workers shd be willing to sacrifice. But look, we live in a real world!
I also think abt the marginal utility of money. If u are earning 1 million a year, will earning 2 million a year give u extra joy? I wonder.
Ravi Zacharias said smething today (might be paraphrased wrongly)- that often people are depressed not because of suffering. But when they don't find happiness in what they enjoy doing...or thought they would enjoy doing. Have u ever felt that maybe so much money doesn't make u happy if u don't have someone to share camomile tea with?
Its getting late and I'm getting incoherent. Nights!
Sunday, April 01, 2007
If it matters to u, it is a problem
Haven't been posting much here, cos have been blogging mostly at the other christian blog. :)
It has been a challenging week, and today was one of the most horrible days in my life. It is true that ple get hurt most by the words of the ones closest people to them. And I felt totally unjustified, angry and tired today. Spent some time at the ironing room just listening to christian songs and crying.
Some rays of sunshine....seeing dad wake up again at 645am, on sat, 5 min after I had woken up. He took out the flying wok and said he was gonna fry an egg for me. :P I declined though, cos was in a rush. Nevertheless quite touched, and touched to see him running ard to attend to my mum's requests.
I spent the whole sat out, and sorta in compensation, ironed clothes on friday night instead. Saturday was a tiring but good day. :) Went for SE Forum, and didn't feel comfortable wearing the suit and making small talk with people. But the talks were good, and the question and answer sessions were very thought provoking.
After the session we had lunch with the speakers and I enjoyed chatting with C from Ashoka. He told me about how Ashoka was moving towards working with banks to help wealthy individuals allocate their money to charitable courses. Resonnated well within me, always been interested in venture philantrophy, tying up individuals and social causes together. I'm sure that many individuals have desires to give but don't know where to give. Definitely Singapore may not have many social entrepreneurs, but we have people who can and want to give to social causes.
Once again, it gave me some hope...to envision for the future. :) Perhaps..how good it will be if I can work with Ashoka in the future. Suddenly my finance background made a bit of sense.
It was also good talking to C, don't know why...we were walking and I started burting out many of the things that were in my heart. In particular, I talked abt the Japan Social Enterprise which was set up to help take care of infants who were sick- cos mothers can't take leave to take care of them. And also how mothers face discrimination at the work force. And I couldn't help but comment this social problem compared to starvation etc in the third world seems so much less weighty. And he commented that different societies face different problems. And then he commented that life was not easy for anyone. And because it was not easy, u find that people can't really have compassion or help everyone that they see are in need.
All these relates to me, as I think about my own problems versus the world's problems. And the problems that we face in the developed world are real. Real problems of sadness, depression, loneliness. More stark than anything...under the neon lights...beneath the make up, beneath how we seem to be taking hold of ourselves so well. And that's a problem. And there's a problem of emptiness that we all face......without Christ. A hopeless existence. Everything's changing, but we have a solid rock in Christ.
Don't know if what I said makes sense, cos I have a whole barrage of thoughts, and some emotions choked at my throat. I feel as if...this is getting me closer to the group I've been called to serve. People who are broken hearted. And in the midst, when God comforts me...I am able to comfort others with the comfort He has given me. And I find myself knowing this loving Father more and more everyday. Thank You Jesus. U did not promise problem free life. But u promised Yr presence and rainbow in the midst of our darkness. U have sent us to proclaim liberty to the captives, to heal the broken hearted.
Tmr is another day at work. :P Had an unexpected happy surprise on Friday, a pay raise. Quite a substantial amt. But mostly was encouraged by what my boss said- You did very well last year, and got one of the highest pay increase. This came from nowhere. I did not stay the latest in the office, and in fact was struggling with the mundanity of work. Wow. And yah, I was so encouraged, and also thot of how God blesses us with more..when we are able to be good stewards of little. Trying day by day to live out what John Wesley said- pay increase, standard living remain the same, and giving increases. :D May He give me more to give. Heh. :)
Ok, I shall end this post....on a high note of thanksgiving of His grace and love for me. Amen.
It has been a challenging week, and today was one of the most horrible days in my life. It is true that ple get hurt most by the words of the ones closest people to them. And I felt totally unjustified, angry and tired today. Spent some time at the ironing room just listening to christian songs and crying.
Some rays of sunshine....seeing dad wake up again at 645am, on sat, 5 min after I had woken up. He took out the flying wok and said he was gonna fry an egg for me. :P I declined though, cos was in a rush. Nevertheless quite touched, and touched to see him running ard to attend to my mum's requests.
I spent the whole sat out, and sorta in compensation, ironed clothes on friday night instead. Saturday was a tiring but good day. :) Went for SE Forum, and didn't feel comfortable wearing the suit and making small talk with people. But the talks were good, and the question and answer sessions were very thought provoking.
After the session we had lunch with the speakers and I enjoyed chatting with C from Ashoka. He told me about how Ashoka was moving towards working with banks to help wealthy individuals allocate their money to charitable courses. Resonnated well within me, always been interested in venture philantrophy, tying up individuals and social causes together. I'm sure that many individuals have desires to give but don't know where to give. Definitely Singapore may not have many social entrepreneurs, but we have people who can and want to give to social causes.
Once again, it gave me some hope...to envision for the future. :) Perhaps..how good it will be if I can work with Ashoka in the future. Suddenly my finance background made a bit of sense.
It was also good talking to C, don't know why...we were walking and I started burting out many of the things that were in my heart. In particular, I talked abt the Japan Social Enterprise which was set up to help take care of infants who were sick- cos mothers can't take leave to take care of them. And also how mothers face discrimination at the work force. And I couldn't help but comment this social problem compared to starvation etc in the third world seems so much less weighty. And he commented that different societies face different problems. And then he commented that life was not easy for anyone. And because it was not easy, u find that people can't really have compassion or help everyone that they see are in need.
All these relates to me, as I think about my own problems versus the world's problems. And the problems that we face in the developed world are real. Real problems of sadness, depression, loneliness. More stark than anything...under the neon lights...beneath the make up, beneath how we seem to be taking hold of ourselves so well. And that's a problem. And there's a problem of emptiness that we all face......without Christ. A hopeless existence. Everything's changing, but we have a solid rock in Christ.
Don't know if what I said makes sense, cos I have a whole barrage of thoughts, and some emotions choked at my throat. I feel as if...this is getting me closer to the group I've been called to serve. People who are broken hearted. And in the midst, when God comforts me...I am able to comfort others with the comfort He has given me. And I find myself knowing this loving Father more and more everyday. Thank You Jesus. U did not promise problem free life. But u promised Yr presence and rainbow in the midst of our darkness. U have sent us to proclaim liberty to the captives, to heal the broken hearted.
Tmr is another day at work. :P Had an unexpected happy surprise on Friday, a pay raise. Quite a substantial amt. But mostly was encouraged by what my boss said- You did very well last year, and got one of the highest pay increase. This came from nowhere. I did not stay the latest in the office, and in fact was struggling with the mundanity of work. Wow. And yah, I was so encouraged, and also thot of how God blesses us with more..when we are able to be good stewards of little. Trying day by day to live out what John Wesley said- pay increase, standard living remain the same, and giving increases. :D May He give me more to give. Heh. :)
Ok, I shall end this post....on a high note of thanksgiving of His grace and love for me. Amen.
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