Saturday, May 07, 2011
The night walk alone
Took a walk home to my hse. The night always seems to bring much clarity. The night walk alone.. Makes me feel courageous and touched at the same time. After all the noise n busyness, we are each our own, individuals, uniquely created with our passions, delights, joys, quirks. We become more likeable as we become more like ourselves each day. We become acceptable not when we try to be other people. It's only when we can know ourselves that we love ourselves n learn to love others who are different from us. It is when we gain acceptance of ourselves that we become acceptable to others. These statements need to be read with qualifiers. :)
Monday, May 02, 2011
Be like the fountain that overflows
I really haven't been blogging for some time... Felt a bit inspired by a couple of things here and there, but just did not get down to writing.
Today is a public holiday and I am spending the whole day at home, save for a possible trip I may make to the beach in a short while.
For one, I'm thankful for the cell group that I've attended since Jan this year. It's a new group that started this year, and somehow, we are just able to mix with one another, and have been spending a lot of time together. Last night we went for KTV, and then had icecream at Udders until 1am. I feel young again. :D It's not only a cg that spends time together, but it's a group of people that encourages one another and also reaches out to each other's friends. It was inspiring sending off one of the cg friend to the airport for his flight which was at 5am.
I just finished a book titled "Veronika decides to die" by Paulo Coelho, the book seeks to define madness, i.e. everyone of us in "mad" in our own ways. And the "mad" are actually being more real in being themselves, versus following social norms. I liked this quote: "Be like the fountain that overflows, not like the cistern that merely contains".
Maybe, this is one of the reasons I have stopped blogging so regularly, because I am trying to contain myself in a cistern, which unknowingly makes me feel depressed.
I want to be like the fountain that overflows. And I am thankful for a community to live out a real life with Jesus. A real radical life with Jesus.
I somehow still feel that there will still be something lacking though. Till His Kingdom really comes.
There's no more water to flow out, if there is no rest and refilling in Jesus.
I want to sit down at the beach and ask God abt the things I should be lacking go. And the things I should still hold on to. The responsibilities I shouldn't be taking on, and the things that seem crazy but He wants me to do. :D Work has been busy..and long hours. My tired bones are cracking and the fine lines under my eyes are growing.
Ageing..and this year marks the year I turn 29. I had always thought I would be married by 28 years old. It feels strange. Like I am now of a more matured age, taking on more responsibilities. I sometimes feel like I am living someone else's life.
I would be lying if I say this is not of a concern to me. Yet I know that being married doesn't make one feel less lonely, but it does seem like you would have someone to share your life with.
The pros are ofcos that I have much more mobility to travel and run around :) And more time for myself.
Thankful for a community in the CG. The counter to loneliness is the deep friendships and community. Having real friends and not superficial ones. And yes I am thankful that I have such friends.
Today is a public holiday and I am spending the whole day at home, save for a possible trip I may make to the beach in a short while.
For one, I'm thankful for the cell group that I've attended since Jan this year. It's a new group that started this year, and somehow, we are just able to mix with one another, and have been spending a lot of time together. Last night we went for KTV, and then had icecream at Udders until 1am. I feel young again. :D It's not only a cg that spends time together, but it's a group of people that encourages one another and also reaches out to each other's friends. It was inspiring sending off one of the cg friend to the airport for his flight which was at 5am.
I just finished a book titled "Veronika decides to die" by Paulo Coelho, the book seeks to define madness, i.e. everyone of us in "mad" in our own ways. And the "mad" are actually being more real in being themselves, versus following social norms. I liked this quote: "Be like the fountain that overflows, not like the cistern that merely contains".
Maybe, this is one of the reasons I have stopped blogging so regularly, because I am trying to contain myself in a cistern, which unknowingly makes me feel depressed.
I want to be like the fountain that overflows. And I am thankful for a community to live out a real life with Jesus. A real radical life with Jesus.
I somehow still feel that there will still be something lacking though. Till His Kingdom really comes.
There's no more water to flow out, if there is no rest and refilling in Jesus.
I want to sit down at the beach and ask God abt the things I should be lacking go. And the things I should still hold on to. The responsibilities I shouldn't be taking on, and the things that seem crazy but He wants me to do. :D Work has been busy..and long hours. My tired bones are cracking and the fine lines under my eyes are growing.
Ageing..and this year marks the year I turn 29. I had always thought I would be married by 28 years old. It feels strange. Like I am now of a more matured age, taking on more responsibilities. I sometimes feel like I am living someone else's life.
I would be lying if I say this is not of a concern to me. Yet I know that being married doesn't make one feel less lonely, but it does seem like you would have someone to share your life with.
The pros are ofcos that I have much more mobility to travel and run around :) And more time for myself.
Thankful for a community in the CG. The counter to loneliness is the deep friendships and community. Having real friends and not superficial ones. And yes I am thankful that I have such friends.
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