Corrine May

My latest acquisiton is a CD by Corrine May, "Safe in a crazy world".
The tunes of the songs tend to be similar, but I like the lyrics very much.


S A F E   I N    A    C R A Z Y    W O R L D
Written by Corrinne May Ying Foo
Copyright 2003, Corrmay Gourmet Music (ASCAP)

I try to smile my tears away
I try to keep my cool
Oh but one more door gets in my way
I feel like such a fool
Trampled and bitter
My heart just wants to bleed and stop
Believing in me

It feels like nothing is for certain
and that nothing comes for free
When they're lowering the curtain
to the theatre of my dreams
I stumble and I crumble and I'm
Sinking to my knees but you
You cradle me

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again

Noise keeps chasing me
No matter where I go
Oh and life likes pretending that it's
On a TV show
When it's hard to tell what's real
From what the world just wants to preach
You are the voice I seek

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world

'cause when I'm wrapped up in your arms
Nothing else can touch me
What a wonderful way to recharge
I feel like I can breathe again

You keep me flying
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength
to believe in me again

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Needless to say, the one who embraces my fragility is God, who accepts me for who I am. And I am thankful for that. It is when someone believes in you, that u can believe in urself. No matter how down trodden or how many times we have failed, God always believes in us.

I also like this other song called Free in the album.

It's still the same old story
This great divide
Between the want and waste
And all the hunger inside
I heard the news today
Now I'm trying to find my place
I'm just a single voice
What can I do to erase
All this misunderstanding
All this anarchy
Six degrees of separation
Sometimes it's so hard to see
That we are not alone in this
I need to believe

I can be free
I can be free from this place
Beautiful healer
Beautiful grace
Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains

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The hungry and homeless ple..I am only ONE. How can I help these people? But as the lyrics say, I need to believe tat I am not alone in this. I feel tat the lyrics are like prayers to God. As I was listening, I felt this heartfelt plea to God to save the poor, the hungry, the destitute.

And in all these things, we all try to find our place.
I can't help struggle within me the disparity betw my passion/dream and my current occupation. I can only say tat this is a waiting and moulding time, to learn, so tat I can eventually step out into my true passion. And actually, i am not interested in the prices of stocks, and how investments perform, Not as much anyway as seeing people's lives change, and helping to solve hunger problems.

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As the lyrics say, I am only a single voice, what can I do right?
I just wanna do wat I can! And I know tat He will anoint me. Tat He give me the power to heal. =)

Blessed

Actually, I am really blessed.
Prayed for a job tat pays well, and a job where I can still serve God in the cg. And indeed my job pays well and also I get to go home at 6 plus everyday? The latest I went home so far is at 740pm.
I think tat things are building up and I will be more stressed later on. But meanwhile it has been good. I think watever time I can, I will try and stay back and learn more stuffs. Every Tues and fri I gotto buzz off for church and cg so its like..hehe...my manager and colleagues stay till 8 plus I think..or the manager stays till 9 plus. I feel bad...but my fellow new colleague, goes off with me at the same time, smtimes even earlier.

I guess it is a moulding period..tho...easy, yet really difficult. It is hard to spend the whole day in the office! And when I reach home I have to reply emails for SE...and also cg stuffs. So its really like..thankfully, the shorter hrs enable me to do other stuffs also, else I will really go mad. Its really very stressful. :(

This week's msg abt FAITH totally spoke to me. Because faith is not the absence of fear, but faith is going forward inspite of fear. Honestly, who can have no fear? The man..who wanted healing for his son, told Jesus, I believe, but take away my unbelief! The msg went on to say tat we only need to have faith the size of a mustard seed. And u mix this little faith u have, with actions. In the end, we can believe all we want, until we step out and do something..tats when God also moves when we move.

I also think tat in our fire...trials and tribulations, the true condition of our hearts are revealed. Wat do u hold on closely to? And...how much do u want it? Can the fire...cause u to give up..and also WHY does the fire cause u so much pain? There is surely something tat..has not yet been surrendered in our hearts. And it is tat piece of dirt/impurity, tat will be taken out thru the fire, but ONLY if u let God take that dirt away. Our response can be to whine, cry and complain. OR we can choose to cry out to GOD and He is able to cleanse us and bring us thru. And u noe wat? the good thing is tat after the fire, YOU and ME, we become like pure gold. Our end is betta than the beginning.

I pray tat I never get bitter, but I get betta.
YEst at cg, I had a revelation...
kinda knew it all along, but it was revealed to me tat....
many a times we go thru trials..and disappointments happen and discouragement sets in. As long as we dun deal with it, it grows and fosters into something called bitterness.
And this bitterness grows..and ur distance from God grows, unknowingly..anger and doubt creep in.
And no longer we feel the peace and love of God.
But thankfully it is all a matter of choice..no matter how difficult, it takes only a choice and a decision to praise God in all situations, and to know tat, His plan is greater than ours...and we enter into a place of refuge with Him. When u noe tat ur savior...He holds u in His hand...and when u dun see Him in action, know for sure that God is never late but ALWAYS on time for u.

Everything happens for a purpose

Everything in life happens for a purpose. A very divine timing. The ple u meet with, circumstances u are placed in.

I tend to tink tat Faith isn't just abt fighting battles.

Faith is a belief in your heart.

God is God who touches the heart. Deep in your soul, He speaks to u.

Faith is smtimes a quiet strength, a quiet belief. And strength.
It is a peace u have while the world ard u is in turmoil.

=)
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It has been a good weekend so far. And interestingly, God brought interesting ple into my life. Some of them, I can't help noticing, they struggle with problems I had before, or now in the midst of working on. No wonder He says with the grace He helps us to overcome, we share with others.

I tink tat ple are interesting. Every human being, whether old or young, fat or thin, confident or low self-esteem, all of us are flesh and blood.
And ple will get weary, tired and heavy laden, and at some pt we need rest.
Men need fellowship.
Men need companionship and love.

I sometimes feel tat God has given me a gift. I feel tremendous grieve for hurting ple, a strong pain in my heart. Why shd I deny this gift?
I shd instead use this gift to pray..fr the depths of my heart for the hurting souls. And I pray tat He will use me to reach out to them.
Most of all...
to speak the words I can't speak. To convict the heart in His manner.

This I feel...is wat the gospel is abt.
Reaching out to ple..loving ple
and living out a life for Christ.

Teach me..where I shd go...left or right?

I come to a point in life...where I tink I am going into a new place.
But I dunno how to explain to anyone the situation.
Its like..u come to this point where there is only u and God...
In this secret place where u commune with Him.
And where only He understands?

Shd I turn to the left or to the right?

And...
wat this moulding and waiting is doing...
It is polishing me up.

Good things and bad happen all at one time.

Its like the good things required lotsa sacrifice..and, they are really comforting to have.
The bad things aka challenges are also opportunities.

Need God to direct la...

Your Existing Situation

Imaginative and sensitive; seeking an outlet for these qualities--especially in the company of someone equally sensitive. Interest and enthusiasm are readily aroused by the unusual or the adventurous.

Your Stress Sources

Wants to overcome a feeling of emptiness and to bridge the gap which she feels separates herself from others. Anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to explore all its possibilities, and to live it to the fullest. She therefore resents any restriction or limitation being imposed on her and insists on being free and unhampered.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Feels that she cannot do much about her existing problems and difficulties and that she must make the best of things as they are. Able to achieve satisfaction from sexual activity.

Your Desired Objective

Strives for a life rich in activity and experience, and for a close bond offering sexual and emotional fulfillment.

Your Actual Problem

Fights against restriction or limitation, and insists on developing freely as a result of her own efforts.

Your Actual Problem #2

The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants leads her to play her part with an urgent and hectic intensity.

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Music baton

Tis is from eunice..
wow...
now then i take the baton. Sorrie gal..been so busy.

Total Volume of Music files in my Computer
392 MB, 174 files
Haha...
Eunice...mine is not an obsene figure. Sigh. U noe why? Cos computer breakdown la!! reformatted it so many times.

The last CD i bought was
I don't buy CDs, I free ride.
Sister bought for me No Longer I -Christian City Church Youth. Was great, as they sang christian music in a v contemporary way..free flow.

Song playing right now
"Drops of Jupitar" by Tanya Chua(Guess who bought the cd? Haha. My sis!)

Five Songs that I listen to a lot, or mean a lot to me

1. Fall to Fly by Corrine May
I like the lyrics, because the persona speaks of how she didn't realise that when she falls she could actually fly. Has great personal meaning to me. Always remember that when we let go of our lives, and let God take over, then we truly could fly.

2. Dou Jiang You Tiao by Lin Jun Jie
I could identify with the lyrics of how the dou jiang needed the you tiao, in one of my frenships with a fren. It was so close and we were so bonded together. I like the fast paced chirpy tune.

3. The Reason by Hoobastank
I liked the song the first time I heard it cos I like the beat of the song and the lazy way in which it is being sung. The lyrics are very sweet, in order for someone to change himself for you. Wow. Its a very heartfelt song. One day I hope tat my love one sing this song to me. HINT!!!

4. Fly Away by FIR
I like the positive lyrics. Fly away..no matter what happens, to be strong and to keep on keeping on. Super positive. Can see a future. 'Fly away, bu guan wei lai you duo kun nan, wo ren ran neng gan jue xing tiao hai zai. Nothing I will be afraid"!!

5. Jue Jiang (Stubborn) by Wu Yue Tian aka Mayday
The drums, music background is great. I like the feel of the song...gives me a very freed up feeling. The lyrics tell of pressing on..keeping on as well. I like the chorus. "Wo he wo zui hou the jue jiang, wo jin shuang shou jue dui bu fang". "Jiu suan shi wang bu neng jue wang". Hope is so important to any individual.

6. Still by Hillsongs
"Hide me now, under Your wings"
Its my fave song to listen to whenever I am tired. Always will cry when I sing the song. I love the chorus..and everything. Its like in the midst of the storm, being still, and knowing that God is there..and that I am hiding under His wings.
"Know His power in quietness and trust."

7. Superman-its not easy to be me by Five for Fighting
I like how it comes in very soft and the voice of the singer. And then at the chorus it comes to a peak. I can identify with the lyrics everytime. Cos ple tink tat superheros are ever strong, but superheros aka leaders also have their weak moments being misunderstood. I mean superman..is after all just a human la.

4 people i'm passing the baton on to
Everyone can feel free to do it la..

quick update

Hi..
its been a super packed week and tiring...wake up early, go home late.

Today went to church for emerge conference. Went right after work, and reached at 7. Took cab from boon lay mrt. WHoa, the whole church was packed, and gate locked. So couldn't go in.

Then called eyoung, who was also making his way down, to go for dinner. It was a good chat and dinner. Nice dinner of omlette with noodles at some jap fast food. All the way home, sharing abt slackers, life and nerds. :)
Yo bro, nerds are also great ple ok!!

Yups. So I really need a lot a lot of grace.

Its been q crazy during office hrs. Have to make phone calls to sponsors/SE committee/cg during lunch time. Tats practically the only time I can talk..cos the office is pretty quiet. And everyone will hear u on the phone. Then smses keep coming in my hp. Work wise it is still ok..can cope. A lot of figures to check.

In this transistion period, I am seeking God for a new vision. Where is this launching pad going to? This time of preparation. A new place..a new vision, and lots of moulding. Need lots of His strength and guidance.

Tues nite emerge was fantastic. It was amazing presence of the Lord. So strong..and so near. The Holy Spirit's presence. And pastor preached a very simple message abt Mary vs MArtha. Heard this upteen times, but it was a great message..and at the end..when pastor started singing, whoa, something happened inside my heart. So near...the presence, where only u and God.

:)

its been a long week and weekends are not weekends cos they are also filled with activities!

Just dropped to say HI I am still alive!!

Jasmine came for lunch today near my wk place. :) So glad she came. It was like seeing someone familiar in a strange setting. If u noe wat i mean? She came in her jeans and T-shirt hehe..
and I was observing the working lunch crowd..in their silettoes (spelling?), long sleeved shirts..men smoking and smirking away..

Lost in a crowd of working ple...
and lost in a lifestyle.
But behind those are the real you.

And u kinda let down ur hair when u are with ur frens...(close ones I mean!)
when u are talking with sponsors, clients, colleagues...
its any part of urself tat u show.
But who is the real u?

The real u...behind the facade..
has his fears/insecurities/cares..

Oke..tata for tonite
zzz

Moses

Apart from Jesus, who is your favorite Bible character? Describe in detail how you've been personally impacted by the life and experiences of this character.


Moses is my favorite character in the bible. In different times and seasons of my life, the life of Moses influenced my values and transformed me.

My fascination with Moses began when I was a young Christian. As a young Christian, I wondered whether God ever called someone who was not eloquent to speak and to be His leader. The usual examples of leaders I saw were men and women who were charismatic with leadership qualities. Moses was one such person who was not eloquent when he was called. When he was first called, Moses said to God, "O my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor since You have spoken to Your servant; but I am slow of speech and slow of tongue." (Exodus 4:10) I sat up when I saw this verse because I felt just like Moses. I had a vision to be a cell group leader, but I was not eloquent. I was easily intimidated by people, and whenever I spoke publicly, I would be very nervous. On one occasion in Junior College where I was supposed to make an announcement to the class, my voice was so soft and I was so nervous that no one could hear me speak. Such incidences made me feel very discouraged, and I felt that it was impossible for me to ever be a CGL.

But God said, “Who has made man's mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the Lord? Now therefore, go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall say." (v11, 12) This verse was a revelation to me. God could use anyone, and He would teach us the words to say wherever we went. At this point, Moses instead of being full of faith, asked God to send someone else. Moses needed his brother Aaron to communicate to the people. From this incident, God showed his graciousness toward men. Even when fear inhibited us from doing whatever He called us to do, He was patient and gave us time to change.

Moses overcame his fear as time went by and became a man full of authority and faith. He overcame numerous trials and problems which surfaced during his ministry. He parted the red sea, reprimanded the people, and God used him to perform many other miracles. As time passed, Moses began to address the people directly. As he came to the end of his life, he summarized all that had happened, and addressed the Israelites with a powerful speech (Deuteronomy). I was amazed by the source of his transformation. Moses overcame his fear because he walked so closely with God! It was as if the one leading the people was God and not Moses. All the instructions that Moses had for the people such as the 10 commandments came from God. Every instruction he gave was a fresh word from God. If Moses could overcome his sense of intimidation and low self-esteem, I knew that I could too.

The bible says that God spoke to Moses as if he were His friend. While the rest of the Israelites shrunk away from God’s presence (Exodus 20:18-21), Moses went into the cloud of God’s glory, and climbed up the mountain to seek Him. When he came down from Mount Sinai, the skin of his face shone. Moses had the confidence and authority to lead the people not on the basis of his own character, but because he had God on his side.

Moses was a man that sought after God’s presence before ministry. To him, it was either God or nothing. In 2003, the cell group I belonged to was not growing. I was then a helper in the cell group and I felt very burdened. It became tiring to be the one most on fire in the cell group, and being the one to encourage the people. I could not sense God’s presence. I was tired of ministry and wanted to give up. As I was reading the bible, I read a prayer that Moses made. Moses prayed from the depths of his soul. He said, "If Your Presence does not go with us, do not bring us up from here. For how then will it be known that Your people and I have found grace in Your sight, except You go with us? So we shall be separate, Your people and I, from all the people who are upon the face of the earth." (Exodus 33: 15-16)

As I read these verses, I was touched by the way Moses put God’s presence above God’s promise to bring them to the promise land. Moses was essentially saying that it was either God or no ministry. In other words, the ministry in terms of bringing people to the promise land was only worth anything if God went with them. I was convicted that I had done things the other way round, I had been focusing on ministry rather than God. I told God that we wanted His presence in the cell group more than anything, and if not, there was no point in having the cell group, because we needed His presence. I cried as I prayed this prayer because I felt a release of the ministry to God. Almost immediately, the presence of God came into the room and touched me.

In 2004, I became a CGL, and the character of Moses still inspires me today. Recently, I read Drawing Near by John Bevere. In the book, Pastor Bevere expounded on the same passage in Exodus, and I had a greater revelation of Moses’s character. Pastor Bevere said that Moses wanted God’s presence more than God’s promises for him. Whereas the whole of Israel was looking for God to bring them to the promise land, Moses yearned for God Himself. Moses understood that God’s first calling was first to Himself and not to ministry. If our focus was on having our needs met by God, we would be discouraged and upset when He did answer our prayers. However, if we were really seeking after God, then being in fellowship and communion with Him was sufficient to satisfy us. Everyday, I cried out to God to anoint me as a CGL, but I missed out on the most important part of being a Christian, and that was to commune and to fellowship with God.

Not only was Moses seeking after God’s heart, Moses also loved the people he led wholeheartedly. Indeed, a good shepherd would lay down his life for his sheep, and Moses demonstrated time and time again, he was willing to die with the people if God wanted to punish them. Moses led a group of people who kept complaining and murmuring. Moses led a group of people, who had experienced God’s miracle in parting the red sea, providing manna and water within the desert. Nevertheless, they lived in a backslidden state and were always full of doubt. They were often prideful, challenging the authority of Moses, and at other times, they sought after other idols. Moses always pleaded before God for the people. In Exodus 32:32, God was angry with the Israelites for the golden calf they had made, and he told God “Yet now, if You will forgive their sin--but if not, I pray, blot me out of Your book which You have written." Moses identified with the sin of his people even though he had not sinned. At another time, God said He would destroy the Israelites and give Moses a new group of people to lead, but Moses refused. Any other leader would perhaps have pleaded with God to give them more teachable people to lead, but not Moses. Moses genuinely cared for the people and he loved them in spite of their sins. Whenever I go through a difficult time in dealing with members, I am reminded of how Moses loved his people. Whatever nasty person I experience, I am reminded that Moses had a much tougher time. Even though the bible does not describe how Moses felt, I could imagine the burden he felt and it was at least 10000 times heavier than whatever I felt in leading a group of 15 people in the cell group.

At the end, Moses committed a mistake that cost him his destiny. He could not enter the promise land. It would be easy for us to point fingers and accuse Moses for striking the rock two times. However, we as Christians also make mistakes of the same nature in being disobedient toward God. It is important for us to guard our hearts so that at the end of the day, we can obtain the prize. This mistake only showed the imperfection of Moses as a human, and how he struggled with his fleshly nature. Nevertheless, Moses remains my favorite character in the bible. Someone who was human, and yet someone who drew so close to God that he spoke face to face with Him, like a friend.

Super very tired......
eyes half closed
Mind...a bleary..hehe....

20 And when he came to the den, he cried out with a lamenting voice to Daniel. The king spoke, saying to Daniel, "Daniel, servant of the living God, has your God, whom you serve continually, been able to deliver you from the lions?" 21 Then Daniel said to the king, "O king, live forever! 22 My God sent His angel and shut the lions' mouths, so that they have not hurt me, because I was found innocent before Him; and also, O king, I have done no wrong before you." Daniel 6:20-23

God's protection over me..and His wonderful blessings.
My testimony of the 4 years He has brought me thru uni.
Some of u read it liao la..

Testimony
When my friend from Bizad asked me to give a testimony, I decided to write my own anyway. It wouldn’t do God justice if I didn’t share about how He has blessed me throughout my 4 years in Bizad. Some people may say that I am smart. That I am in honours because of my abilities. I don’t think so. I think that I am really blessed.

Orientation and First Year
My first contact with Bizad people was during the Orientation camp. I joined the camp alone, but with the intention of reaching out to people in the camp. It was lonely actually, because people all came in cliques. But I thank God that I managed to make some friends, and up till today we still greet each other when we see each other. In my first year, it was really lonely in school too because uni is unlike JC, where people moved from class to class, and you have classmates to help you and your familiar set of friends. In uni it is like to each his own. Projects are done with excellence and competition is high. I stayed in PGP (hostel) for the first sem. I didn’t cope well. Thank God He brought into my life the people from Varsity Christian Fellowship. I have a lot to thank for my dear seniors who made my stay so lovely. Darryl, my senior, would call me frequently to ask me how I was coping in school. I joined a VCF CG.

I had my first taste of presentation. When I presented, it was the most horrible time. I can still remember, M&O class. When I stood in front of the class, I didn’t bring a script..my mistake, and my voice trembled, my paper shook too! And then I forgot all that I was supposed to say. I was upset and very angry with myself. And Lizhen, another VCF senior, who stayed in PGP too, was very comforting. We prayed together, sitting by the fountain and rocks at PGP. And she encouraged me that I would get used to presentations. At the same time, the church was doing a series on Self Esteem. Loving yourself and others. I realised that I knew in my head that God loved me, but I didn’t know in my heart. I didn’t believe that I deserved to be loved. I was always angry with myself. This was the time where healing came, and I realised how God valued me as an individual, and that no longer was I condemned.
I joined other activities throughout my year 1 days too. From night cycling to stardust to mooncake to Vday activities. It was fun. Got to know many people.
I got back my first set of results and I got a 3.8. I was devastated. I mean, it is not as bad, but I was used to getting As in JC, and then now..a B average. I needed a 4 to get into honours. God gave me a verse. He said, forgetting those things that are behind, reaching forward to those things that are ahead, I press on toward the upward call of God. I meditated on God’s verse day and night, and I improved in my next semester’s results. I overcame my fear of presentations.

Being VCF Bizad Chair
As I was about to come to Year 2, VCF needed a chair in Bizad. The seniors approached me. I remember there and then I wondered whether to take it on or not, because I was involved in church and my vision was to be a cgl in church. I asked my cgl, she asked me to pray about it. One of the nights, I met Chai Hwa, VCF worker. I told him about my reservations, and I said I was more keen on serving in my church. Chai Hwa said, the whole body of Christ is your family, and VCF members are your brothers and sisters. The word convicted me. I took up the position. During those times it was discouraging. Why? Cos the numbers that joined were small. I was upset! I didn’t see the revivals that I saw in visions and dreams. I realised that I was also not really equipped to be a good leader. One night, Paul, law chair, prayed for me. He gave me a word. He said..God says that you must serve out of a position of rest. And the presence of God was so strong that I cried! Then we had book of Samuel bible studies. Pastor talked about partial obedience is disobedience. He mentioned Saul. I thought of myself, and I realised that I wasn’t serving in God’s grace. I was worrying, becoming carnal. Following week I got the leaders to pray. In the library, when we prayed, me Jeffrey Yeemmei, I felt the Holy Spirit so strong. People were coming back to Him.
In that semester I served as Chair, I got into the Deans list with a cap of 4.7. God encouraged me greatly. Not that I sought the cap..it just came as a by product. It came as an encouragement.

Revival in Bizad
I decided that I was not equipped to be a leader. I stepped down from VCF after serving for a year. I got trained in cell group in church. In my spirit though there is still a love for the school, I pray that revival will come. The image of hearts coming unto the Lord..the image of people crying..and humbled before God. Paul became the chairman of VCF this year. Paul spoke of how the Holy Spirit moved during VCF camp (July 2004). People were crying. One guy was so touched, he went to the toilet, and when Paul went to find him an hour later, he was still crying. Paul told me, you know the revival that we prayed for 2 years ago? It has come! I pray the move comes to Bizad. It comes to touch us too. I can see that God is raising up a new generation of people in Bizad, and how we came together just last sem to pray for our faculty. People like Huiling, weijye, derrick, garrett etc etc. Wow. Awesome.
During my 4 years in biz, I brought a brother to church. I knew him through orientation camp. He came for about a year, and then he left. I pray that God will draw him back again. The seed will remain. I pray that I have been sensitive enough to invite the people around me. The days filled with projects deadlines and reports and tests are still vivid to me. There was no rest. Hardly any TV. Late nights of sleep, in which u must pray for God to give you strength to sustain you. To give you a heart of compassion. To be filled with His joy, and His love. To see what He sees, to value what He values. The Lord also knows times when I strayed, times when I was discouraged, didn’t do well. Times when I was prideful, trying to do everything by my own strength. Needless to say, not relying on Him and not serving from a position of rest.

Inward Growth
I became a cgl in church in april 2004. It was also a period of much trials, testings, temptations, loneliness. When people are out shopping, chatting and eating, you gotto be disciplined and focused. Lunch was sometimes a sandwich or a pau or fishballs. But thank God for the many friends that He brought me! Always up and down the corridors, there were warm smiles and friendly greetings! Yes, He does bring good friends to spur you on. Of course there was this part that was lonely in the soul too. You are focused on the Lord, but people around you may not understand. But it was also a time whereby I was broken. When the Lord showed the true motivations of my heart for serving Him! But it was also during this period that He became intimate with me, and my faith in Him grew. God is faithful. Wait for the caller to call you. What is the true calling? A calling is NOT just about a calling to ministry. God’s primary calling for us, is to draw near to Him. Amen.
Last of all, it is possible to serve God, be active in school, and do well in school! All through faith and His amazing grace! Praise the Lord.  These 4 years have been tremendous years of moulding and building.
I’m currently doing my thesis. My professors are very busy and have not been replying me. I know I need their guidance. Meanwhile I have to do this step by step and pray for God’s wisdom. I am sharing this here because I have no doubt that He will bring me through. I put my trust in Him. Amen.

Thesis!!

I gonna sleep liao..
but before I do so..hehe
My thesis got A-!
Praise God!! Thank you! :)
Its like just some days ago lidat..
mugging in lib....
and not sleeping...
and juggling and stress
and prof not replying.
Its all over.
A new phrase of life.

Thank you for bringing me thru! I noe that You will lead me in my next phrase of life!