Fell sick yesterday....while out with some frens, realised that I was feeling giddy, cold and feverish all over. My temperature came to abt 38.5 degrees. Ate some panadol and went to sleep. I think that it is an accumulation of exhaustion, plus the weird hot weather and I'm actually very thankful for this "forced" rest. After sleeping 10 hrs last night, I still feel tired. : ( I hope the doc gives me 2 days of MC.
heh...as u can guess, this post is merely to whine abt myself...do allow me to indulge in myself a bit and keep me in prayer. Going off to get some rest again. :)
Monday, March 31, 2008
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
My Prayer
Preserve me Dear Lord,
By Your gracious love, uphold me.
You will not leave my soul in Sheol. In yr presence are joys forever more.
Psalms 16
1 Preserve me, O God, for in You I put my trust.
2 O my soul, you have said to the LORD,
“You are my Lord,
My goodness is nothing apart from You.”
3 As for the saints who are on the earth,
“They are the excellent ones, in whom is all my delight.”
4 Their sorrows shall be multiplied who hasten after another god;
Their drink offerings of blood I will not offer,
Nor take up their names on my lips.
5 O LORD, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
You maintain my lot.
6 The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
Yes, I have a good inheritance.
7 I will bless the LORD who has given me counsel;
My heart also instructs me in the night seasons.
8 I have set the LORD always before me;
Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.
9 Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices;
My flesh also will rest in hope.
10 For You will not leave my soul in Sheol,
Nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption.
11 You will show me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy;
At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
By Your gracious love, uphold me.
You will not leave my soul in Sheol. In yr presence are joys forever more.
Psalms 16
1 Preserve me, O God, for in You I put my trust.
2 O my soul, you have said to the LORD,
“You are my Lord,
My goodness is nothing apart from You.”
3 As for the saints who are on the earth,
“They are the excellent ones, in whom is all my delight.”
4 Their sorrows shall be multiplied who hasten after another god;
Their drink offerings of blood I will not offer,
Nor take up their names on my lips.
5 O LORD, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
You maintain my lot.
6 The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
Yes, I have a good inheritance.
7 I will bless the LORD who has given me counsel;
My heart also instructs me in the night seasons.
8 I have set the LORD always before me;
Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.
9 Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices;
My flesh also will rest in hope.
10 For You will not leave my soul in Sheol,
Nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption.
11 You will show me the path of life;
In Your presence is fullness of joy;
At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
Monday, March 24, 2008
Sacrifice
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pEBmuQxXlHU&feature=related
Rom 8:32 He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not with Him also freely give us all things?
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Easter Day!
I havent been blogging much here cos I've been doing spiritual reflections in my other blog!
And I've been busy! Last weekend went to church retreat, and this weekend there were a lot of easter and good friday events. :)
Even though I've been a christian for 10 years now, I am touched anew this easter. Jesus's cruxification, and all the sermon and messages on His resurrection and new life bring me to tears. As I now seem to understand His love anew.
One prayer that's stuck in my head, what Kat prayed for me at camp- My child, u don't have to carry this burden yourself. This burden is too heavy for you to carry. Let me carry it for you.
Thank God for Good Friday.
And I've been busy! Last weekend went to church retreat, and this weekend there were a lot of easter and good friday events. :)
Even though I've been a christian for 10 years now, I am touched anew this easter. Jesus's cruxification, and all the sermon and messages on His resurrection and new life bring me to tears. As I now seem to understand His love anew.
One prayer that's stuck in my head, what Kat prayed for me at camp- My child, u don't have to carry this burden yourself. This burden is too heavy for you to carry. Let me carry it for you.
Thank God for Good Friday.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Rainy Days...
It has been raining non-stop for the past few days...
I wonder when the rain will stop!
I wonder when the rain will stop!
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Meaningful Youtube links
I've been very blessed by some of these links, which I'm going to share with u.
1) 祷告
This is a chinese song on Prayer. Speaks of how much we need prayer and how God understands every tear we cry.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v5hwJL5fCvY
2) Held
Stumbled upon this song by Natalie Grant. I've never heard of her until today, and she's really quite a powerful gospel singer. I esp like the lyrics of this song. I think they are very deep in fact in grappling with the issue of pain, lost and death.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=h2m1HZekCcc&feature=related
And Natalie also has a foundation that is dedicated to eradicate human trafficking. http://thehomefoundation.net/
(wow I like her already, next to Corrinne May)
3) Rick Warren on orphans in Africa
He shares about how God opened his eyes to the bible about helping orphans and widows. Sobering stats on AIDS and no. of orphans in Africa.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=8zQYA6OgyuM
Be blessed! :)
1) 祷告
This is a chinese song on Prayer. Speaks of how much we need prayer and how God understands every tear we cry.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v5hwJL5fCvY
2) Held
Stumbled upon this song by Natalie Grant. I've never heard of her until today, and she's really quite a powerful gospel singer. I esp like the lyrics of this song. I think they are very deep in fact in grappling with the issue of pain, lost and death.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=h2m1HZekCcc&feature=related
And Natalie also has a foundation that is dedicated to eradicate human trafficking. http://thehomefoundation.net/
(wow I like her already, next to Corrinne May)
3) Rick Warren on orphans in Africa
He shares about how God opened his eyes to the bible about helping orphans and widows. Sobering stats on AIDS and no. of orphans in Africa.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=8zQYA6OgyuM
Be blessed! :)
Monday, March 10, 2008
Rivers in the desert
I've been busy, din go home for dinner except 2 days last week. I suspect that it is not just physical tiredness, but my emotions are feeling the strain of carrying others' emotional baggages, and other than that, my own emotional baggages.
Yes yes, learning to let go, learning to rest in God, and let Him be the one carrying these burdens. Holding on to His promise at the start of this year that He will fill me with His love so that I can administer His love to others.
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A good fren got married yesterday! :) Praise God as the slideshow of their photos was being shown, how He has been with them for the past 6 years of courtship. God has been very good indeed. :) My first attempt in being a "jie mei" was interesting. Babe, I'm so happy for u that u have found the one to spend yr life with.
I am thinking, why it is so difficult to let go, is because I am afraid that I will not find someone who will have the same dream and passion. But I know (and I hope in my heart too) that when I seek His kingdom first about His purposes for me, He will provide.
The thing is a ministry to the broken is often very emotionally exhausting, and having a partner to share with, to pray together with, to minister together with, is something I yearn deeply for. Nevertheless, I should not be seeking it the other way round- aka, seeking the partner first then God's purposes. But rather whatever God has purposed, He will provide. I hope He gives me what I want. Yet I understand that it is only in seeking Him first that all good things come.
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God has been speaking to me of new beginnings, and a blessed future. :) With my new job starting soon in 2 mths time, I've been preparing my heart. Verses have been deposited in my heart about new beginnings, about the hope and future that I have in God. He is, in control. And I give thanks.
18 "Do not remember the former things, Nor consider the things of old. 19 Behold, I will do a new thing, Now it shall spring forth; Shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness And rivers in the desert. Isaiah 43:18-19
As I prepare for the Breakthrough weekend this coming weekend, my prayer is that God will speak to me afresh, and fill me with His Spirit. As I look back what has taken place since the first one I went to in June 2007 until now, I know He has been good. I went to breakthrough weekend (a 2 day all women retreat at Bintan) last year with a heavy heart, lost and discouraged. Much weary from service as a cgl, and much doubting on whether I can serve Him again. Much lonely from coming to CEFC alone. Grappling with lostness, what was ahead was a patch of darkness.
How God has healed me during the retreat, and now giving me new ministry oppty to serve Him again. This time with brokenness, and more experienced to relate to others (i dun hope to go through again). And yes, His direction for my life has become much more clear now.
Yes yes, learning to let go, learning to rest in God, and let Him be the one carrying these burdens. Holding on to His promise at the start of this year that He will fill me with His love so that I can administer His love to others.
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A good fren got married yesterday! :) Praise God as the slideshow of their photos was being shown, how He has been with them for the past 6 years of courtship. God has been very good indeed. :) My first attempt in being a "jie mei" was interesting. Babe, I'm so happy for u that u have found the one to spend yr life with.
I am thinking, why it is so difficult to let go, is because I am afraid that I will not find someone who will have the same dream and passion. But I know (and I hope in my heart too) that when I seek His kingdom first about His purposes for me, He will provide.
The thing is a ministry to the broken is often very emotionally exhausting, and having a partner to share with, to pray together with, to minister together with, is something I yearn deeply for. Nevertheless, I should not be seeking it the other way round- aka, seeking the partner first then God's purposes. But rather whatever God has purposed, He will provide. I hope He gives me what I want. Yet I understand that it is only in seeking Him first that all good things come.
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God has been speaking to me of new beginnings, and a blessed future. :) With my new job starting soon in 2 mths time, I've been preparing my heart. Verses have been deposited in my heart about new beginnings, about the hope and future that I have in God. He is, in control. And I give thanks.
18 "Do not remember the former things, Nor consider the things of old. 19 Behold, I will do a new thing, Now it shall spring forth; Shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness And rivers in the desert. Isaiah 43:18-19
As I prepare for the Breakthrough weekend this coming weekend, my prayer is that God will speak to me afresh, and fill me with His Spirit. As I look back what has taken place since the first one I went to in June 2007 until now, I know He has been good. I went to breakthrough weekend (a 2 day all women retreat at Bintan) last year with a heavy heart, lost and discouraged. Much weary from service as a cgl, and much doubting on whether I can serve Him again. Much lonely from coming to CEFC alone. Grappling with lostness, what was ahead was a patch of darkness.
How God has healed me during the retreat, and now giving me new ministry oppty to serve Him again. This time with brokenness, and more experienced to relate to others (i dun hope to go through again). And yes, His direction for my life has become much more clear now.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Grasping for the wind
Korean dramas have been popular for some time. And I have watched my fair share as well. In spite of its slow pace, I suspect that Korean dramas are popular because of its plot. Most of the time, boy likes girl and girl likes boy but due to some misunderstanding, they thought that their feelings for each other is not mutual. Until those misunderstandings get cleared, boy and girl live in suspense and heartache. In the end, boy and girl realise that they love each other afterall and live happily ever after.
How we wish for that in real life, that our love is mutual, and all the heartaches are a series of misunderstandings, that will eventually lead to a happy ending. Sometimes we make excuses for ourselves, and we make excuses for others. Unfortunately, holding on to something that is unreciprocrated, or love that is far gone, is somewhat like grasping for wind. At best, bitter sweet memories remain. Sometimes I kid myself that I don't expect anything in return for loving someone. But its tough. And at the end of the day, I do expect something in return.
I do hope that I can love with a pure heart.
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I've decided to focus on my career! I've decided to focus on God and ministry.
Finding the right guy at the right time, is afterall divine. The hole in the heart is real. The need for intimacy with God is even more real.
I share honestly here, and hope that this will help anyone going through pain. =)
How we wish for that in real life, that our love is mutual, and all the heartaches are a series of misunderstandings, that will eventually lead to a happy ending. Sometimes we make excuses for ourselves, and we make excuses for others. Unfortunately, holding on to something that is unreciprocrated, or love that is far gone, is somewhat like grasping for wind. At best, bitter sweet memories remain. Sometimes I kid myself that I don't expect anything in return for loving someone. But its tough. And at the end of the day, I do expect something in return.
I do hope that I can love with a pure heart.
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I've decided to focus on my career! I've decided to focus on God and ministry.
Finding the right guy at the right time, is afterall divine. The hole in the heart is real. The need for intimacy with God is even more real.
I share honestly here, and hope that this will help anyone going through pain. =)
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Haven't been blogging that much...
I've been quite busy and occupied! Got church activities, plus I'm in the training program, need to study for a mid term test for this coming! Lotsa meeting up and catching up with friends too. March is a bz bz month!
Went to NATAS fair yesterday, and I am going to Japan with a friend in betw my changing of jobs. :)
I guess that's about my short highlights, do refer to my spiritual journey if u wan some christian thoughts.
Muacks!
Went to NATAS fair yesterday, and I am going to Japan with a friend in betw my changing of jobs. :)
I guess that's about my short highlights, do refer to my spiritual journey if u wan some christian thoughts.
Muacks!
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