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Last week 3 koreans (can u identify the koreans?) came over to visit our cg. => So..here's a pic of the cg I've been talking about every time in my blogs.

I love my cg!! Yesterday's CG meeting was awesome. The presence of God came in so strongly, that I almost wept during worship...and then at ministry, I felt heat all over me. A very very strong anointing and presence.

The message was on spiritual hunger.

It has been such a challenging week..that I dunno how to describe it. If u tink thesis was bad, last week was worst. Maybe its an accumulation of a lack of rest. Since sch ended, found a job quickly. With the forum coming soon in 2 weeks time, pretty much very tied. Slept at 1 plus almost everyday, and wake at 7am. The worse thing is the barrage of things that hit you. In the morning..reach the office at 830, and the mad rush begins. This week something happened in the office to some figures. So my department had to bear the responsibility for some mistakes. So yah....my 12 hr work day doesn't end when I reach home cos of forum and cg stuffs. And so 1am is my sleeping time.

Our all time favourite Spider man says tat with power comes great responsibility. If u aspire to be the man on the stage who preaches every week, or the CEO of a company in newspapers, or the big shot being interviewed in the news, be prepared for responsibilities. Basically someone with power, behind that man is full of hardwork, self doubt, obstacles, burdens that he has to overcome. And until we pass one test, dun expect to move to the next.

Thesis was challenging but I can "cope". But wat happens when u come to a pt where u cannot. When u got zero strength to carry on. And then u need the FAITH to believe in God and to trust Him, to walk in obedience to His word. Even when in front of u is a patch of nothingness, u hold on to the promise and keep walking.
WHen u come to a pt where I cannot cope, I die to myself, and I know that my only hope is God.

Throw u in a shallow pool, u swim happily and know that God is by ur side.
Throw u in a pool..where u can tip toe to get ur head above water, u ask God for help and guidance. And strength to tip toe the whole way.
Throw u in a deep pool, where u need to paddle to stay above water. I tell u, u paddle like mad, and in ur desperation, u cry out for help. U NEED God to be there for u.

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Tsewen left to go back to US to complete his studies yesterday! And Cuiwei to go back to NUS. Both have 6 mths to graduation. We had peranakan food at blue ginger. SO sad. Tsewen is a joy on my floor cos he goes around gossiping. Haha..not really la, he actually smiles a lot and is a very positive person. And very soon in Aug/sept the rest of the schlars shd be leaving soon...or in oct. Booohoo..less ple to crap with in the office.

Love

I "kopped" this from my fren's blog but it really makes a lot of sense. =)

"The love that we need for ministry is not a natural ability; it's a supernatural quality that only God can provide. When the people we serve irritate us or disappoint us, the first thing we usually do is pray for them and tell the Lord to change them. What we ought to do first is pray for ourselves and ask God to increase our love. Otherwise, we may give the devil the foothold in our own hearts, which will create problems the next time we try to minister to those people: "And be kind to one another [even if they aren't kind to you], tenderhearted [even if they hurt you], forgiving one another, even as God in Christ forgave you" (Eph 4:32)" - Warren Wiersbe

People, lives and their hearts

I was really angry today after an encounter with this christian brother.

It really saddens my heart sometimes to see how ple can be "hungry" for God, His word and His presence, but don't live out a Christ like life. Look, if you say that you have been touched by His presence, then PLEASE live out a life that demonstrates that, instead of being self-righteous and pointing ur fingers at others. No wonder the bible says to look at the speck in your own eye first. Ple who are genuinely touched by God are changed. The touch of God follows with u repentance and acts of good works. After being touched it should be followed through with discipline to start reading the bible, and praying.

Any form of I-don't-need- anyone-to-teach-me so please back off attitude = pride. U may think u noe the whole bible inside out, upside down. But please, this kind of attitude does not please God.

quick sharings

Heh..just spending some time on the comp..super tiring week.

But it has been a good week, enjoy the project i am working on in office! Yay. =) And God has been gracious, cos everyday I need to rely on His strength. Some pt I feel like I am sitting on the sand and the waves are just throwing me forward. Tats the Holy SPirit. Listening to the songs softly on my PC helps really..and in my heart I ask for more strength, wisdom, anointing, and to impact my surroundings.

Went to my first GIC christian fellowship. Abt 10 ple turned up. The lady sharing the word was really good, as in, she was so sincere and I could identify with wat she shared. Wats interesting is an extention of the bizad like christian fellowship into work place, but the ple are ple in their 20s to 50s? Heh...interesting. But the ple weren't too open in their sharing, and I shared with them abt myself and how divinely God placed me in the co. =) Really glad, and grateful.

Also give thanks for the scholars. The young bunch of guys in GIC, some on attachment, some just grad. On my floor, there are 3 scholars. One fr Malaysia, one fr HK, one fr Singapore. So exciting!! And I can see why they are scholars! They are so smart, humble, and they make things happen! They study in US...the one in my department studies in california..heh..he is my age, and gonna come back to serve bond (6 years!) in 2 years time. =)Haha..so blessed to rub shoulders with the smart ple. YEah....things are good la, but need lotsa strength.
Gee.....reminds me of JC days actually. Kinda..where u meet ur classmates, same faces everyday....
Have nice lunch kakis everyday..changing..one day its xyz, next day its abc..ahah..something to look forward to...and Agnes, my colleague, has been really nice la...
and my other colleague, bought 3 bear soft toys fr some charity thingy tat my co. had. And I brought the bear to my table and hugged it!!! Yay..so happy. Told her tat her bear is very happy with me. ANd she said her poor bear. =) I kinda waved the bear at my colleagues and when i am bored I go around giving out sweets to ple.

I tink I must be going siao..and losing coherence..heh. Too tired already. +) But yeah...its a new era, new beginning. New places...foreign places, but a new land surely..onward to the promise land. WHere there is milk and honey.

Convocation 2005

Took several pictures at my graduation yesterday. =) It was nice graduating and meeting up with old faces. I will miss school, miss NUS, miss lectures, miss my frens.

Guess who came? Jingyi!! haha, but to support her fren la. chey. Me, xt and JY!!





Kelvin and me. First met Kel in orientation, we were is the same orientation group! Then we joined orientation together again next year to lead the freshies! I like his scholarbear!!

With my happy and proud parents.


Me and my OB group, tho I deserved an A for my OB HRMPhm, since I've such a great project group, but alas.
Left to right. Derrick -Derrick ONG!!! Fellow bizadder, praying together for Bizad revival.
Gerard,shawlin. Weijye-the one who pia thesis with me in the library, and gives me sweets when we pia thesis together.


Jonathan and Qinyun, my clique in uni. =) W/o them, life would be bad.

Andrew and I. Andrew, my confidente, encourager, fren and fellow fighter for social causes!



YEah..and to end of the day, dinner at The Village with my juniors from CAMEO!!! =) Love ya guys...
Love all of u..who made my life so special in biz.

Fires and waters

Been through one of the toughest week of my spiritual life and walk with God. This whole week was filled with spiritual and emotional attacks. Felt very very tired of everything, but with all the faith i can muster-indeed a mustard seed size, I cling on to God and His promises.

And indeed when we are weak, He is strong. Today's CG was good and powerful, and it was great hearing the mbrs testimonies and how they have been blessed by God thru out their week. Esp from this mbr who said since 8mths, this is the first time he felt God's presence so strongly again, that enveloped him. I was like WOW. How awesome. And when we lay down our lives on the altar, really nothing God cannot do or use.

My week starts every day..
wake up @ 7am, leave at 745am, cos neighbour drives me. =)
Finish work@ abt 630pm? So far stayed till abt 8pm before..still alrite.
Reach home @ 730pm..bathe and eat dinner. Wash dishes.
By tat time is abt 9pm..
check email..
reply emails for SE forum 2005...
By that time is 1030 pm or 11pm...
Some nites..call mbrs.
Brush teeth, read bible, pray...
sleep...
1230am....

AHHH onli 6.5 hrs of sleep..

On tuesdays....reach home at 12am after meeting...
SO....
bathe, pray etc, sleep at 2am.

HEH...
Ok shall STOP whinning.

I understand tat this amt of sleep is enuff for some ple.
But not enuff for me.

Gotto pray for more strength and endurance. =)

Random thoughts of a working adult

My cubicle, which has a white board beside me. Note wat I write on my white board? So tat day and nite I am reminded of God's strength.

Me and my name.......the name outside my cubicle. EGO!!!! :P
Agnes and I. We joined on the same day.










A picture of me at my cubicle- which is pretty neat and empty (for now).