Bday reflections

It was a nice day yesterday, had lunch with a group of friends from church at Fish and Co for my bday, and they treated me for lunch, as well as got me a slice of cake! Was glad Diana and Shar came to join us. So it was a juxtapose of old and new church frens. Then they sang me bday song as well. After tat I went to the gym. And then before long it was dinner time, at Holiday Inn buffet with my family and relatives. =) I introduced Camomile tea to my parents, and my dad kind of liked it! When I got home, realised the souvenir cum bday present tat Diana had bought me was a pack of Honey Vanila Camomile tea. So happy for the thoughtful gift, just when I was thinking of Camomile tea! Spent time talking with Ed and praying, as usual was grateful for the insights.

And today, I went back to GIC to meet up with my ex colleagues. I miss their company so much. Met my ex boss who said, U must come back more often. :) I met up w HY who baked me a cake and got me a World Vision T-shirt. Always got a soft spot for WV, and the cake was sweet in my mouth. Had good chat with Des over dinner as well. So all in, it has been a good time of meeting with people.


Yup. I am thankful for life's various pleasures that I get to enjoy. Camomile tea is one of them! But yup, I've tasted Jap, French, Korean, Chinese, Western (and more) Cusine in lovely settings. I have a gym club membership. I stay in a nice house. What more do I want? (World peace would be good =) )


Ever since working in my new job, it became clearer to me than ever that I was a very pampered gal. Always had everything provided for by my parents. However in my new job, I am required to be sharp and quick and resourceful. This baffles me many times, and I feel so inadequate. Pray for God's grace and strength to do things beyond what I can do.

Yup...and I'm finding myself getting tired more and more often. Part of it has to do with negative self talk that depletes my energy. But then another part of me wonders if it is time to drop anything, bcos Pstor Ed says that if u are overloaded, u cannot build deep. And its true. I wish that I could spend more time on building deeper friendships with some people, impacting lives in a deeper manner. And other than that also have time for good books and lots of reflection time with God.

After all the hussle and bussle of activities, what I really long for is a deep fellowship with God. To read my book and be quiet. And another thing I'm praying for, a close knitted community to share lives with.

But one thing that comforts me, what God calls us to do, He will provide. Don't know how it will work out. I pray that His strength may be sufficient for me.

Comforting thoughts

I haven't blogged for a while so thought I would sneak one in.

Its a photo blog....to show 2 photos of my workplace.

This one is the entrance to my workplace blding. I like the cross at the top and how it looks against the sky.



I'm learning the grace of God upon our organization, even as it struggles with our human and systemic imperfections. Yet the organization continues to exist for its reason to fulfil God's plan.




This one is a photo of my cubicle. We shifted cubicles one week ago. And I thought God answered my prayer for a quiet and more sheltered corner, whereby I can have more space and reflect and work better. So thank God for answering my prayer. The photos are from Cambodia- postcards I bought for fund raising. And there's a framed up picture of my mission trip to C. Both sets of pictures are to remind me why I am here. Without a vision, the people will perish.

Now zoom to something at home...
A picture of a sheep soft toy that my fren gave to me recently, plus the dog soft toy my sis gave me after I failed driving test 4 years ago. It reminds me that I am dearly loved.

Everyday we are alive, is a gift from God. Learning not to sweat the small things, or to place too much importance on how people view me. But at the end of the day, I want to treasure my loved ones, my family, my close friends whom He has blessed me with. I want to remember that He has given me a dream.

Lastly, this is a song that really touched my heart. Because I am reminded that Jesus was everything, but most of all, He is love:

Third Day, Steven Curtis Chapman, Mercy Me - I See Love Lyrics

Some see a teacher
Standing on a hill
Speaking words of wisdom
Some see a healer
Reaching out his hand
To give sight to a blind man
Some see a dreamer
Wasting his life
On what can never be
Some see a fool
Dying for his dreams

But I see love (I see love)
I see love (I see love)
Light of heaven breaking through
Well I see grace (I see grace)
I see God's face (I See Gods face)
Shining pure and perfect love
When I see you
I see love

Some see a prisoner
Alone before his judge
With no one to defend him
Some see a victim
Beaten and abused
With all the world against him
Some see a martyr
Carrying his cross
For what he believes
Some see a hero
Who set his people free

But I see love (I see love)
I see love (I see love)
Light of heaven breaking through
Well I see grace (I see grace)
I see God's face (I See Gods face)
Shining pure and perfect love
When I see you


With your last breath
I see love
Through your death
I see love
I see peace in the eyes of the king
I see hope in your suffering (I see love)
I see a calm in the center of the storm
I see a Saviour

I see love
I see love
Light of heaven breaking through (heaven breaking through)
I see grace
I see God's face
Shining pure and perfect love
When I see you
I see love
When I see you
I see heaven breaking through
See Gods face
Shining pure and perfect love
When I see you
When I see you
When I see you
I see love
I see love
When I see

Some see Him walking from an empty grave

Be thou my vision

Its amazing that July came and went, and now it is August. Time flies...

My spirits have been down of late due to various reasons. I'm feeling tired too often. : ( And the mood swings really go high and low.

About few days ago, two cats found their way into my kitchen, and over turned the dustbins in search of fish and I had to shoo them away. Even tho the two cats were cute, and I absolutely like cats. The two were like a pair of partners in crime, giving each other eye contact before they scampered off. Another one of the two came back again gingerly. I was washing the bowls, and to my amusement, the cat was sitting there quietly staring at me. Had to shoo it away again. Mum doesn't like cats in the kitchen, and if I give them food, they will come again and again.

I found something in this episode that parallels life. Sometimes, u can't have what u really like, cos the situation makes it so.

On Fri night at prayer, edmund shared about giving back the blessings to the blessor, because sometimes we get so caught up with the blessings, that we miss out on the blessor. It was a very sober msg, because unknowingly, or knowingly, we hold blessings tightly and refuse to let them go. I had to give back a few things, it didn't feel that painful at that point, cos I think I've been praying and asking for God's grace to give the blessings back to Him all along. The painful part is how this giving works in daily living, the daily consecration of one's heart and mind to be seeking the blessor and not the blessing. He quoted something from CS Lewis, "if you aim for heaven, you get earth thrown in, but if u aim for earth, you get neither. "

Singing "Be thou my vision" today meant a lot to me, that it brought tears to my eyes. The lyrics say "Be thou my vision, O Lord of my heart, Naught be all else to me save that thou art ". Really, to tell God that nothing else matters except You, it brought tears to my eyes. Because...I know I meant it with all of my heart, yet in a very imperfect way. But God understands the struggle.

And so now Lord...will you be my vision, which after peeling away all the onion layers, is the deepest cry of my heart.