I realise tat I am a thinking person.
My fren asked me yesterday, are u a very serious person? I realise I am. Was thinking the whole time yesterday. At the table were 5 of us. One of them kept telling stories, making jokes. She is an "I" personality. I am not. When I start telling stories, I dun feel comfy saying my story fr start to end. But I think I need to learn it. And to include some humour to my life story.
Another fren said leaders shd all be "D"-Dominant. I am also not.
I think I pretty much believe in free will and allowing pple to speak and think wat they want.
Now being a leader, I have to learn to be D. Learning it in both church and also in organisanising the forum. When Andrew doesn't like smthing that someone did, he tells it straight to the face. And he is VERY sure of what outcomes he wants. For me, I tell the person "Maybe...", "I think..."
I dun tink there is right and wrong to that. Pastor said yesterday, God created each one of us with different personalities. He knows your weaknesses! But you were not created as an accident.
I thank God tho for a chance to reflect. Ah...again, I conclude I am a person who likes to reflect. :) But when we did the personality test, I scored so low on being a reflector?
Coming out of comfort zone is so difficult. But faith knows no limits.
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Watched "Shall we dance" with a couple of other cgls yest. Show was interesting. Happy ending. And it was q good...dance is realli a form of liberation I guess. To the male protagonist, John, it was. It made him happy. Oh..and he was tempted by the dancer...for her looks? Her mysterious aura? Something different fr his normal lawyer routine life I guess....
But in the end I think tat he came to the conclusion tat liberation existed not just in dancing...but also real liberation was accepting himself..and letting others know who he realli was? So tat he was free to share with his family this aspect of his life...
He was free to tell his wife tat, look, I am unhappy with my present way of life. So the liberation came not in the dancing, but it came in security..and acknowledgement of oneself.
Monday, January 31, 2005
Saturday, January 29, 2005
Daphne...
Gave Daphne Bible study today, did a little shopping, spent a long time chatting in the cafe. It was great. I give this blog this title, cos I thank the Lord for sending me this sister in the cg. She is realli a great encouragement to me. Daphne! Jia you! :)
And of cos to all the other bros and sis in the cg. SO proud of u guys, always so strong. :)
And of cos to all the other bros and sis in the cg. SO proud of u guys, always so strong. :)
PUSH
I read this story some times ago...I think 2 years back. When I first read it, I was so touched that I cried. Today, it has the same effect on me. Enjoy the story, my fren. :)
PUSH for Life
A man was sleeping at night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light, and God appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might. So, this the man did, day after day.
For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all of his might. Each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain. Since the man was showing discouragement, the Adversary (Satan) decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the weary mind: "You have been pushing against that rock for a long time, and it hasn't moved." Thus, he gave the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure. These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man.
Satan said, "Why kill yourself over this? Just put in your time, giving just the minimum effort; and that will be good enough."
That's what the weary man planned to do, but decided to make it a matter of prayer and to take his troubled thoughts to the Lord.
"Lord," he said, "I have laboured long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimetre. What is wrong? Why am I failing?"
The Lord responded compassionately, "My friend, when I asked you to serve Me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all of your strength, which you have done."
"Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to Me with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so?"
"Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewy and brown; your hands are callused from constant pressure, your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much, and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have ."
"True, you haven't moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My wisdom. That you have done. Now I, my friend, will move the rock."
At times, when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what He wants, when usually what God wants is just a simple obedience and faith in Him.
By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but know that it is still God who moves mountains.
When everything seems to go wrong ...just P.U.S.H.!
When the job gets you down ...just P.U.S.H.!
When people don't react the way you think they should ... just P.U.S.H!
When your money is "gone" and the bills are due ... just P.U.S.H!
When people just don't understand you .... just P.U.S.H.
P = Pray
U = Until
S = Something
H = Happens
PUSH for Life
A man was sleeping at night in his cabin when suddenly his room filled with light, and God appeared. The Lord told the man he had work for him to do, and showed him a large rock in front of his cabin. The Lord explained that the man was to push against the rock with all his might. So, this the man did, day after day.
For many years he toiled from sun up to sun down, his shoulders set squarely against the cold, massive surface of the unmoving rock, pushing with all of his might. Each night the man returned to his cabin sore and worn out, feeling that his whole day had been spent in vain. Since the man was showing discouragement, the Adversary (Satan) decided to enter the picture by placing thoughts into the weary mind: "You have been pushing against that rock for a long time, and it hasn't moved." Thus, he gave the man the impression that the task was impossible and that he was a failure. These thoughts discouraged and disheartened the man.
Satan said, "Why kill yourself over this? Just put in your time, giving just the minimum effort; and that will be good enough."
That's what the weary man planned to do, but decided to make it a matter of prayer and to take his troubled thoughts to the Lord.
"Lord," he said, "I have laboured long and hard in your service, putting all my strength to do that which you have asked. Yet, after all this time, I have not even budged that rock by half a millimetre. What is wrong? Why am I failing?"
The Lord responded compassionately, "My friend, when I asked you to serve Me and you accepted, I told you that your task was to push against the rock with all of your strength, which you have done."
"Never once did I mention to you that I expected you to move it. Your task was to push. And now you come to Me with your strength spent, thinking that you have failed. But, is that really so?"
"Look at yourself. Your arms are strong and muscled, your back sinewy and brown; your hands are callused from constant pressure, your legs have become massive and hard. Through opposition you have grown much, and your abilities now surpass that which you used to have ."
"True, you haven't moved the rock. But your calling was to be obedient and to push and to exercise your faith and trust in My wisdom. That you have done. Now I, my friend, will move the rock."
At times, when we hear a word from God, we tend to use our own intellect to decipher what He wants, when usually what God wants is just a simple obedience and faith in Him.
By all means, exercise the faith that moves mountains, but know that it is still God who moves mountains.
When everything seems to go wrong ...just P.U.S.H.!
When the job gets you down ...just P.U.S.H.!
When people don't react the way you think they should ... just P.U.S.H!
When your money is "gone" and the bills are due ... just P.U.S.H!
When people just don't understand you .... just P.U.S.H.
P = Pray
U = Until
S = Something
H = Happens
Kunming airport
Nice pic...of the whole YEP team at Kunming airport heh. I'm using a new photobucket function. Wow, so cool. :)
Friday, January 28, 2005
CG!
Heh cg fellowship was good today...Glad to see pple coming together and enjoying each other's company. :)
I think we could have pressed in more into God's presence...
I'm glad tat He is touching and changing lives, and pple desire to be changed. :) Saw some tearing during worship. Wow...God kept speaking thru different ple. I pray tat God will continue to move in the cg.
Today I called Mediacorp, and this lady ask me to email her my interview ques. At least things are looking up. And CDL also replied me. Yeah...and also Motorola. Hope tat I get to interview them realli soon. It's realli not such a good feeling having to "beg" or ask favours. Same for getting sponsors for the forum. Guess gotto overcome this. SO tat am able to work and meet clients next time. trying lotsa new things lately. Up hill task.. help me Lord!
I think we could have pressed in more into God's presence...
I'm glad tat He is touching and changing lives, and pple desire to be changed. :) Saw some tearing during worship. Wow...God kept speaking thru different ple. I pray tat God will continue to move in the cg.
Today I called Mediacorp, and this lady ask me to email her my interview ques. At least things are looking up. And CDL also replied me. Yeah...and also Motorola. Hope tat I get to interview them realli soon. It's realli not such a good feeling having to "beg" or ask favours. Same for getting sponsors for the forum. Guess gotto overcome this. SO tat am able to work and meet clients next time. trying lotsa new things lately. Up hill task.. help me Lord!
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Changes and stuffs
Just had dinner with my "winner" biz policy grp. Dinner was good..catch up time, and it countered the usual notion tat project grps stay as project grps. Amazing tat we can all meet up for dinner. Except tat settings have changed, and...bernard is in his long sleve shirt working at UOB, canice got a job at HSBC...issac is gonna be an academic, Mel C is now working in a firm doing publicity.
Ohhs...time for me to be applying for jobs now too! I din attend any JP Morgan, Citibank, UOB talk...sheesh, they all clash with my other stuffs. I also wonder if I wish to work in a bank, cos it seems realli boring. I am tinking of applying for this i-pop job...
Well with the uncertainty, I am also not sure if I like a job where I can meet clients, or I want a research job (deskbound)? And I realise tat in august 13th I will be having the SE Forum...by then I would be working liao, and heading it....WOw, seems like a whole lot of stuffs to do.
Andrew called me fr Germany yest..he said cos I sounded drained in my email to him. Tats so nice of him.
It isn't exactly a very easy period to be going thru, nevertheless with the Lord's grace and ways tat He has been encouraging me....I will persevere!
Oh ya, my dad was v nice tat day. This is a realli good testimony. I wanted to find a tuition job, and my dad said, dun go and find lar...spend ur time looking for a perm job. I give u $200 every month. WHoaaaa....tats on top of my pocket money. :)
Ohhs...time for me to be applying for jobs now too! I din attend any JP Morgan, Citibank, UOB talk...sheesh, they all clash with my other stuffs. I also wonder if I wish to work in a bank, cos it seems realli boring. I am tinking of applying for this i-pop job...
Well with the uncertainty, I am also not sure if I like a job where I can meet clients, or I want a research job (deskbound)? And I realise tat in august 13th I will be having the SE Forum...by then I would be working liao, and heading it....WOw, seems like a whole lot of stuffs to do.
Andrew called me fr Germany yest..he said cos I sounded drained in my email to him. Tats so nice of him.
It isn't exactly a very easy period to be going thru, nevertheless with the Lord's grace and ways tat He has been encouraging me....I will persevere!
Oh ya, my dad was v nice tat day. This is a realli good testimony. I wanted to find a tuition job, and my dad said, dun go and find lar...spend ur time looking for a perm job. I give u $200 every month. WHoaaaa....tats on top of my pocket money. :)
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
New blog skin
Hehe...Okie
enough...
Back to my thesis!
Oh Oh Oh
I must share that my supervisor replied my email. I am so happie!!! :) Yay...things are looking up.
Now gotto type my methodology for my chapter 2. Hehe
enough...
Back to my thesis!
Oh Oh Oh
I must share that my supervisor replied my email. I am so happie!!! :) Yay...things are looking up.
Now gotto type my methodology for my chapter 2. Hehe
Sunday, January 23, 2005
New blog skin
Haiyoh
I can't believe this, spent so much time doing frivalous stuff and I can't find a blog skin tat I like? If this goes on I might as well go back to my blurty..heh...
Oh well...
Anyway eugene is so nice to help me search...shall continue the process tmr. After I do some work ofcos!! Thesis comes first. :)
I can't believe this, spent so much time doing frivalous stuff and I can't find a blog skin tat I like? If this goes on I might as well go back to my blurty..heh...
Oh well...
Anyway eugene is so nice to help me search...shall continue the process tmr. After I do some work ofcos!! Thesis comes first. :)
Friday, January 21, 2005
Wow!
Wowwww..
from the prayer meeting to worship to preaching to offering. It was GREAT!
Awesome...thruout God saying the same thing, go back to ur first love!! Eugene spoke watever God told him to. How many of you actually believe in God? Whoa man..and joel added. And then the sermon was so-so...but when it came to ministry, it was so powerful..it was like continuation of the conviction fr God. Tat pple had to go back to their first love. Fellowship was great. Heh...ratio of 5 guys to 2? For the first time. Well..guys tend to talk abt diff stuff heh..but it was great.
God turned the whole situation around. Wow, indeed this whole thing has changed my character..checked my motives for being a cgl. I'm so humbled. :) SO grateful...
from the prayer meeting to worship to preaching to offering. It was GREAT!
Awesome...thruout God saying the same thing, go back to ur first love!! Eugene spoke watever God told him to. How many of you actually believe in God? Whoa man..and joel added. And then the sermon was so-so...but when it came to ministry, it was so powerful..it was like continuation of the conviction fr God. Tat pple had to go back to their first love. Fellowship was great. Heh...ratio of 5 guys to 2? For the first time. Well..guys tend to talk abt diff stuff heh..but it was great.
God turned the whole situation around. Wow, indeed this whole thing has changed my character..checked my motives for being a cgl. I'm so humbled. :) SO grateful...
Steamboat
Had steamboat cos it was YM's bday. It was a surprise party thrown by her husband. Heh..YM is onli 24 but she is married. Her husband, Ben is like super sweet and good. YM said she prayed for a bf like him. Hehehe...
It was great meeting up with Celia, leech and YM, reminded me of those VCF days. And all over again, I feel this love and togetherness...and how in sch we used to share and prayed for each other.
I came across this verse on Thur:
Isaiah 50:4-9
4 "The Lord God has given Me The tongue of the learned, That I should know how to speak A word in season to him who is weary. He awakens Me morning by morning, He awakens My ear To hear as the learned. 5 The Lord God has opened My ear; And I was not rebellious, Nor did I turn away. 6 I gave My back to those who struck Me, And My cheeks to those who plucked out the beard; I did not hide My face from shame and spitting. 7 "For the Lord God will help Me; Therefore I will not be disgraced; Therefore I have set My face like a flint, And I know that I will not be ashamed. 8 He is near who justifies Me; Who will contend with Me? Let us stand together. Who is My adversary? Let him come near Me. 9 Surely the Lord God will help Me; Who is he who will condemn Me? Indeed they will all grow old like a garment; The moth will eat them up.
10 "Who among you fears the Lord? Who obeys the voice of His Servant? Who walks in darkness And has no light? Let him trust in the name of the Lord And rely upon his God.
This verse speaks of Jesus..on the cross. And when He went thru the suffering on the cross, I can imagine His torment when pple spat at Him and taunted Him. How did Jesus feel? I can imagine totally bad.
But Jesus was meek...He was strong. Because He trusts in the Lord.
Because He completed wat the Master asked Him to do, and tat was all tat mattered.
I pray tat...when I see Him, I can say, I have been obedient to wat YOU have called me to do.
It was great meeting up with Celia, leech and YM, reminded me of those VCF days. And all over again, I feel this love and togetherness...and how in sch we used to share and prayed for each other.
I came across this verse on Thur:
Isaiah 50:4-9
4 "The Lord God has given Me The tongue of the learned, That I should know how to speak A word in season to him who is weary. He awakens Me morning by morning, He awakens My ear To hear as the learned. 5 The Lord God has opened My ear; And I was not rebellious, Nor did I turn away. 6 I gave My back to those who struck Me, And My cheeks to those who plucked out the beard; I did not hide My face from shame and spitting. 7 "For the Lord God will help Me; Therefore I will not be disgraced; Therefore I have set My face like a flint, And I know that I will not be ashamed. 8 He is near who justifies Me; Who will contend with Me? Let us stand together. Who is My adversary? Let him come near Me. 9 Surely the Lord God will help Me; Who is he who will condemn Me? Indeed they will all grow old like a garment; The moth will eat them up.
10 "Who among you fears the Lord? Who obeys the voice of His Servant? Who walks in darkness And has no light? Let him trust in the name of the Lord And rely upon his God.
This verse speaks of Jesus..on the cross. And when He went thru the suffering on the cross, I can imagine His torment when pple spat at Him and taunted Him. How did Jesus feel? I can imagine totally bad.
But Jesus was meek...He was strong. Because He trusts in the Lord.
Because He completed wat the Master asked Him to do, and tat was all tat mattered.
I pray tat...when I see Him, I can say, I have been obedient to wat YOU have called me to do.
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
Cut hair!
Just went out w xt eu sam jac...
Sam says I dun share anymore other stuff like me watching Tiger CUp on my blog. It was great atmosphere watching it live..with a guy behind me who keeps making snide comments non-stop. Some of them are realli entertaining tho. I tink he shd apply to be a commentator.
2nd frivalous thing, I cut my hair! To my chin. As short as my sec 4 hairstyle. It now looks neater and I think it is a diff look. As the stylist was cutting away (Happily..I thought he had said shoulder length? How come chin...) I suddenly remembered my sec sch days. It was like cutting away the rebonding, the styling the colouring, the highlighting. And now it was good old me.
It reminded me...abt myself? Who I realli was...aside fr the makeup and all..and the strength in which i face the world with? Going for conferences, meeting big shots, interviewing corporate executives and wat nots...and peel them all away I am ME. Just ME...
Without the hair I see my eyes, my nose, my mouth, I remember my insecurties.
I remember I need God so much. I remember I am just God's child. I need Him so much.
Sam says I dun share anymore other stuff like me watching Tiger CUp on my blog. It was great atmosphere watching it live..with a guy behind me who keeps making snide comments non-stop. Some of them are realli entertaining tho. I tink he shd apply to be a commentator.
2nd frivalous thing, I cut my hair! To my chin. As short as my sec 4 hairstyle. It now looks neater and I think it is a diff look. As the stylist was cutting away (Happily..I thought he had said shoulder length? How come chin...) I suddenly remembered my sec sch days. It was like cutting away the rebonding, the styling the colouring, the highlighting. And now it was good old me.
It reminded me...abt myself? Who I realli was...aside fr the makeup and all..and the strength in which i face the world with? Going for conferences, meeting big shots, interviewing corporate executives and wat nots...and peel them all away I am ME. Just ME...
Without the hair I see my eyes, my nose, my mouth, I remember my insecurties.
I remember I need God so much. I remember I am just God's child. I need Him so much.
Sunday, January 16, 2005
Finding the true rest
Where can I go..from Your presence?
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Potato salad was great..yummy heh. The YEP pple polished everything up quickly. Was still feeling burdened, sad...and broken...I took 16 fr the hse back home, and as I was walking that stretch of road, this song, came into my mind. It was like the Holy SPirit's prompting:
YOU ARE THE PEACE
THAT GUARDS MY HEART
MY HELP IN TIMES OF NEEDS
YOU ARE THE HOPE
THAT LEADS ME ON
AND BRINGS ME TO MY KNEES
FOR THERE I FIND YOU WAITING
AND THERE I FIND RELEASE
SO WITH ALL MY HEART I'LL WORSHIP
AND UNTO YOU I SING
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL GLORY
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL PRAISE
FATHER WE WORSHIP AND ADORE YOU
FATHER WE LONG TO SEE YOUR FACE
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL GLORY
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL PRAISE
FATHER WE LOVE YOU
AND WE WORSHIP YOU THIS DAY
This was my fave song. I remember the first time I heard was in the old church, during powerhouse, and I was so touched, tat I could find the peace in God's presence.
I felt the Holy Spirit prompting, and reminding me of the past. I dunno why I said this prayer, but I said..God, tmr's worship, let them play this song, or at least smthing related.
Lo and behold..today's worship, Pastor Yong said, God is your PEACE. The bible says, the peace that God gives transcends all understanding.
And I began to weep like crazy, and God's love just came so strongly upon me.
God gave me an image...He picking me up fr the rubbish dump. And I feel like Tatty bear. Heh.
Pastor preached a wonderful msg. He said tat many ple think that rest is sitting there sleeping..stopping ministry. But he referred to Hebrews 4. Wat a wonderful revelation...tat true rest is the rest of faith=trusting God, trusting Him to fight your battles for you. And so that u gotto fight no more.
Thank You Lord.
I will be resting for some time..actually, I need to rest everyday. COmplete rest tat comes from YOU.
LOVE.PEACE.JOY.REST.MEEKNESS
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Potato salad was great..yummy heh. The YEP pple polished everything up quickly. Was still feeling burdened, sad...and broken...I took 16 fr the hse back home, and as I was walking that stretch of road, this song, came into my mind. It was like the Holy SPirit's prompting:
YOU ARE THE PEACE
THAT GUARDS MY HEART
MY HELP IN TIMES OF NEEDS
YOU ARE THE HOPE
THAT LEADS ME ON
AND BRINGS ME TO MY KNEES
FOR THERE I FIND YOU WAITING
AND THERE I FIND RELEASE
SO WITH ALL MY HEART I'LL WORSHIP
AND UNTO YOU I SING
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL GLORY
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL PRAISE
FATHER WE WORSHIP AND ADORE YOU
FATHER WE LONG TO SEE YOUR FACE
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL GLORY
FOR YOU ALONE DESERVE ALL PRAISE
FATHER WE LOVE YOU
AND WE WORSHIP YOU THIS DAY
This was my fave song. I remember the first time I heard was in the old church, during powerhouse, and I was so touched, tat I could find the peace in God's presence.
I felt the Holy Spirit prompting, and reminding me of the past. I dunno why I said this prayer, but I said..God, tmr's worship, let them play this song, or at least smthing related.
Lo and behold..today's worship, Pastor Yong said, God is your PEACE. The bible says, the peace that God gives transcends all understanding.
And I began to weep like crazy, and God's love just came so strongly upon me.
God gave me an image...He picking me up fr the rubbish dump. And I feel like Tatty bear. Heh.
Pastor preached a wonderful msg. He said tat many ple think that rest is sitting there sleeping..stopping ministry. But he referred to Hebrews 4. Wat a wonderful revelation...tat true rest is the rest of faith=trusting God, trusting Him to fight your battles for you. And so that u gotto fight no more.
Thank You Lord.
I will be resting for some time..actually, I need to rest everyday. COmplete rest tat comes from YOU.
LOVE.PEACE.JOY.REST.MEEKNESS
Saturday, January 15, 2005
The dark valley
Yesterday was one of the darkest day of my life. I feel like I am walking thru a valley, which is dark. There is no one beside me...
Now I noe wat it means..when u can't see His hand, trust in His heart. God, I trust! Please help me get thru this valley...
Guys and gals I need your prayer. Pls pray for me. I need the strength to walk thru this valley.
There are countless things tat I could do to counter this situation. But I seem not to have the strength to do these things.
XY was counseling me yesterday...and she said, what u have done is pleasing to God. The measure of your success is not the measure of how ple react. I tink I need to noe, tat God is pleased with me, and I have really tried my v best thru out these 8 months. Andrew says I shdn't "mother" the people, and place responsibility of their turn out on myself.
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Having YEP pot blessing today. yay, making potato salad. :) Think it's gonna be fun. I dun wish to practise escapism however. Yup, so I pray tat God give me the strength, direction and vision. Amen
Now I noe wat it means..when u can't see His hand, trust in His heart. God, I trust! Please help me get thru this valley...
Guys and gals I need your prayer. Pls pray for me. I need the strength to walk thru this valley.
There are countless things tat I could do to counter this situation. But I seem not to have the strength to do these things.
XY was counseling me yesterday...and she said, what u have done is pleasing to God. The measure of your success is not the measure of how ple react. I tink I need to noe, tat God is pleased with me, and I have really tried my v best thru out these 8 months. Andrew says I shdn't "mother" the people, and place responsibility of their turn out on myself.
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Having YEP pot blessing today. yay, making potato salad. :) Think it's gonna be fun. I dun wish to practise escapism however. Yup, so I pray tat God give me the strength, direction and vision. Amen
Tuesday, January 11, 2005
Myraid of journals, tapes, emails (again!)
School started.
For me sch started about a week ago unofficially, or as Weijye says, there was never holidays cos we were supposed to be doing our thesis anyway thru out the dec hols. It is rather scary as the deadline is looming menacingly at 4th April. IN between I am supposed to finish interviewing at least 10 people, do 10 transcripts (each takes abt 6 hours?), analyse all their annual reports, websites, master the qualitative software (called Nudist), master case study research methodology.
Errks. I am feeling rather stressed now...not helping w the 2005 SE forum..and andrew is in germany. :(
Yest was chatting w eddie, and he talked abt how some pple are so concerned abt results, tat the hurt the pple ard them when they dun acheive those results. I guess so...how we can all become so work oriented and become lost in the pursue of those dreams tat were never eternal anyway. WHy? SIgh. I realli dun know...
It seems to me tat no human r/s can ever be perfect. It's like frens tat were close wun be close forever (Leo will say yes! to this?) Neither can any human provide love and attention to u 24/7. In the end it is all a loneliness...oops...why so negative? I mean..in the end, one has to learn to stand up and be strong.
Oh yeah..did my thesis yest in sch with some of my batch ppl..kel weijye jon..certainly helped to have company. Oki, I shall stop whinning and go do my stuff. :)
For me sch started about a week ago unofficially, or as Weijye says, there was never holidays cos we were supposed to be doing our thesis anyway thru out the dec hols. It is rather scary as the deadline is looming menacingly at 4th April. IN between I am supposed to finish interviewing at least 10 people, do 10 transcripts (each takes abt 6 hours?), analyse all their annual reports, websites, master the qualitative software (called Nudist), master case study research methodology.
Errks. I am feeling rather stressed now...not helping w the 2005 SE forum..and andrew is in germany. :(
Yest was chatting w eddie, and he talked abt how some pple are so concerned abt results, tat the hurt the pple ard them when they dun acheive those results. I guess so...how we can all become so work oriented and become lost in the pursue of those dreams tat were never eternal anyway. WHy? SIgh. I realli dun know...
It seems to me tat no human r/s can ever be perfect. It's like frens tat were close wun be close forever (Leo will say yes! to this?) Neither can any human provide love and attention to u 24/7. In the end it is all a loneliness...oops...why so negative? I mean..in the end, one has to learn to stand up and be strong.
Oh yeah..did my thesis yest in sch with some of my batch ppl..kel weijye jon..certainly helped to have company. Oki, I shall stop whinning and go do my stuff. :)
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Breathe
YOU ARE MY GOD
CLOSER TO ME
THAN THE AIR THAT I BREATHE
ALL THAT I AM
FORMED BY YOUR WORD
I'M MADE IN YOUR HANDS
CAPTIVATED
BY YOUR BEAUTY
FALLING DEEPER IN YOU
BREATHE INTO MY SOUL
SPIRIT OF GOD
FILL MY LIFE
WITH YOUR PRESENCE
HIDE UNDER YOUR SHADOW
DWELL IN YOUR SECRET PLACE
IT'S YOU I LONG FOR
IT'S YOU I LONG TO KNOW
YOU ARE MY SONG
IN MY DARKEST NIGHT
I WILL SING OF YOUR DAWN
ALL OF MY DAYS
YOU FILL MY LIFE
WITH MERCY AND GRACE
EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE
I WILL WAIT ON YOU
IN YOUR PRESENCE
MY HEART AND STRENGTH RENEW
EVERY MOMENT I LIVE
I WILL WORSHIP YOU
YOU'VE SATURATED MY SOUL
MY HEART FLOWS
RIVERS OF LIVING WATER
CLOSER TO ME
THAN THE AIR THAT I BREATHE
ALL THAT I AM
FORMED BY YOUR WORD
I'M MADE IN YOUR HANDS
CAPTIVATED
BY YOUR BEAUTY
FALLING DEEPER IN YOU
BREATHE INTO MY SOUL
SPIRIT OF GOD
FILL MY LIFE
WITH YOUR PRESENCE
HIDE UNDER YOUR SHADOW
DWELL IN YOUR SECRET PLACE
IT'S YOU I LONG FOR
IT'S YOU I LONG TO KNOW
YOU ARE MY SONG
IN MY DARKEST NIGHT
I WILL SING OF YOUR DAWN
ALL OF MY DAYS
YOU FILL MY LIFE
WITH MERCY AND GRACE
EVERYDAY OF MY LIFE
I WILL WAIT ON YOU
IN YOUR PRESENCE
MY HEART AND STRENGTH RENEW
EVERY MOMENT I LIVE
I WILL WORSHIP YOU
YOU'VE SATURATED MY SOUL
MY HEART FLOWS
RIVERS OF LIVING WATER
Back with the Lord
Realised that I have been wrong.
Today during worship, God showed me a lot of things...milestones in my life which He picked me up. Times when I was low, downcast, discouraged. Times of depression...Times of low self esteem.
Never really shared my testimony did I? Well, used to be this insecure girl...many many issues. And today I dun claim perfection, but I know that much of what I am today, is a result of what God has done in my life. To accept me in my imperfection, to offer me unconditional love and the affirmation that I need. My dear loving Father...
How could I...That I almost traded my Lord's love for something else. Surely..which is incomparable to His eternal love.
All is put back in perspective liao... :) Thank you Jesus.
Today during worship, God showed me a lot of things...milestones in my life which He picked me up. Times when I was low, downcast, discouraged. Times of depression...Times of low self esteem.
Never really shared my testimony did I? Well, used to be this insecure girl...many many issues. And today I dun claim perfection, but I know that much of what I am today, is a result of what God has done in my life. To accept me in my imperfection, to offer me unconditional love and the affirmation that I need. My dear loving Father...
How could I...That I almost traded my Lord's love for something else. Surely..which is incomparable to His eternal love.
All is put back in perspective liao... :) Thank you Jesus.
Saturday, January 08, 2005
My first entry
I am giving blogspot a try...why not? Since the comments function is now working, and can customise the look of the blog. Blurty still has a special place in my heart though. Yup. Lets try and see if this works or not..with pictures and everything. :)
Cheerios..hope u like the template. I like the butterflies and the *dreamy* look. Took them from blogskins.com. You can try too..very simple. Special thanks to the designer of the template.
Cheerios..hope u like the template. I like the butterflies and the *dreamy* look. Took them from blogskins.com. You can try too..very simple. Special thanks to the designer of the template.
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