I've moved!

Hihi..I've been so busy moving house for the past few days and there was no internet access! Hence the lack of updates.

Its a mixture of emotions, but thank God that everything went smoothly, and it was relatively peaceful at home. :) Even though there were sparks of disagreements here and there ranging from where to put the towels to the books to missing keys etc etc. But overall, God has been gracious. There's still some things I've to unpack and rack my brains abt where to squeeze them. Yeah..so phew, but anyway I can take a breather now!! Thank God!

Dad has been bz and good...driving the stuff to and fro and most of all, installing the computer and restoring the internet! Heh...can't live without it.

Hmmm.....moving also taught me a few principles. I guess the first thing is when I started packing I realised what a whole lot of things I have! A lot of them are gifts from ple, whether it is clothes, accessories, soft toys etc. I've moved a lot of them here and some of them I don't know where to put! Cos I don't really like the accessories for instance, and I have too much of them! A lot of purchases from my mum. Haha. ;) And then for the soft toys, I've chucked behind some newer ones and took the older ones with sentimental value. At the end of the day, value is measured in terms of the meaning behind the item, as opposed to the valuation of the item.

Essentials- My books! One whole row of them behind my bed, heh. First thing that I placed in my room! :) Ideas, thoughts, inspirations, all inside my brains now, I hope....wah...the wealth of knowledge.

Letters letters and more letters, one whole box of them. Now I don't know where I should put them! Full of sentimental value. I think I would cry if I lost them. Esp some of those really meaningful ones from friends, whether it is thanksgiving or words of encouragement, really mean a lot to me.

The destination- Packing was tough, unpacking at the new house was more pleasant. Just like living in the present without a vision of the future is tough. What am I working so hard for? Where will this ultimately lead me? Ahh..its only when u are at the destination, and u can have a view of it, then it encourages u to work hard for something. This has been true for these 1.5 years. It has been tough seeing where the labour leads me to. I'm not sure where is my final destination. But I've faith that it has gotto be good, and that God is in control of wherever I am, will be going, and His loving hand is upon me.

I'm just blabbering non-stop, I guess its to let out all the days of not talking that much!

Today's sermon was GREAT, it was about thanksgiving. Giving thanks and being thankful! Three things pastor said affected us- being critical, complaining and comparing! One of the things he said spoke to me- don't complain, but be the solution. He surprised me by saying there are at least 30 things he thinks can be improved in the church, yet he is not complaining but serving. And many times, when we have a critical spirit, it is because we don't examine ourselves. How true. I think there is a lot for me to examine of myself.

It has been a tough year, mostly cos of my own attitude about things. If I had held a better attitude, seen things in different manner, I guess I would have been happier! Nevertheless, as the new year comes, I pray that I may learn each day to be thankful for all that He has blessed me. He has indeed been good. My thanksgiving item list spans up to 30 plus items. The Lord gives and take-away, and I've been struggling really really hard with the things I like/passionate about/desire, and I've been unhappy. I realise in all these, God showed me my heart- I wasn't really satisfied in Him. I really don't desire Him, and there are all sorts of holes in my heart in the shape of people & dreams. I pray that in the new year, He will continue to grant me the grace to surrender all that I love to Him, to delight in Him. His greatest calling, is not to ministry but to Him alone. I pray I may be satisfied in that.