Blogging in office again!

Heh. Reached the office this morning and I was the earliest in my department and the lights were still off at my area when I came in. Yesterday left office at 845pm. :( Think my colleagues left even later than me, some at 9 plus or even 12 midnight. We are all trying to encourage one another and perk each other up. Some of my colleagues look so stressed, but yay monday is a holiday for us! =)
When I was studying, studies were impt but I won't let it eat up so much of my time. Like doing thesis for e.g. I can do it at my own time and pace. But work is different...cos everyone comes to work at the same time and i can't bring work home either. Hope that I will bear a good testimony in the office by being a good and responsible worker and that God will grant me efficiency. Sometimes I really wish that I can rearrange my working time, to put some work over the weekend so that during the weekdays I can rest a bit. Its like a sardined packed work week and then a free weekend cos u can't bring work home.
So many things to think abt and do.. I hpe I get used to working life soon. =P

Fruitfulness in the Kingdom of God

Been contemplating some stuffs these days. What does it mean to prosper in God or to be fruitful? Can someone be poor and yet prosperous and someone be going through barrenness and yet fruitful? The world sees fruitfulness in numbers, in tangibles, but in the kingdom of God, the bible says that blessed are the poor..it says blessed are those who hunger and thirst. It says that when we are weak He is strong, and that God has chosen the foolish things of the world to shame the wise and the weak things of the world to shame the strong. Paul came to the Corinthians not with eloquence but he came to them with weakness and fear. Our faith must not rest on men's wisdom, but on God's power. Why do christians feel condemned? It is often because they don't feel good enough or worthy enough to be called christians. As I contemplated these things for the past few days, I realise finally what it means that when we are weak He is strong. Precisely cos we are weak, then we have faith in a good God that He is strong enough to overcome our problems for us. Instead of us trying and using our own strength.
The bible calls us to repent from dead works...what are dead works? Works that are done out of our own strength..works that are not led by God. I wonder how many of us minister with our own strength and try to be fruitful by our own works...=dead works. Any work no matter how good, but not led by God is a dead work. And the danger of focusing on fruitfulness is this..that many ple try to be fruitful through dead works. When God doesn't prosper a certain thing, we plan many other activities that are human led. And although we acheive a so-called fruitfulness, all these are works of the flesh and of the carnal nature.
For those of us who are not "propspering" now, can we see that our souls are prospering as much as we grow through the moulding of our God, and by abstaining from interfering in God's work, we are trusting that He is great enough to intercede on our behalf? And that all things work for the good of those who love Him. All these are only meant for our good. We WILL see His hand over our lives and our situations! Don't give up! =)

Working Wholeheartedly

Working Wholeheartedly
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman

In everything that he undertook in the service of God's temple and in obedience to the law and the commands, he sought his God and worked wholeheartedly. And so he prospered. - 2 Chronicles 31:21Hezekiah was a godly king. He was also a very talented businessman and builder. He was responsible for many noteworthy projects that are described in detail in the Old Testament. We discover from the passage above that King Hezekiah had two major attributes that contributed to his success and prosperity: He sought God, and he worked wholeheartedly upholding God's laws.Godly success involves a partnership between you and God. Success in God's economy means achieving the purpose for which God made you. That purpose can never be discovered without seeking Him with a whole heart. You may achieve great things without seeking God, but you will never achieve the things God set out for you to achieve without seeking Him. Unless you seek Him, you may find yourself one day climbing to the top of the ladder only to find it leaning against the wrong wall.What does it mean to seek God? It means creating time to sit before His throne in quiet places. It means reading His Word in order to know Him more intimately. It means developing an ear to hear His voice so that we know when to turn to the right or to the left. God desires to know you.Are you willing to take the time to know Him? If so, you can be sure He will guide you into those things that will bring success to every aspect of your life

Merry Christmas!!

Ho Ho Ho. Merry Christmas!
=) Tis the season to be Jolly!
I like the feeling of being a student on school holiday..surfing the net and chatting, reading books..and writing xmas cards. =)
Hope everyone had a merry christmas!

Christ came into the darkness to be the light...
So my prayer for everyone who is experiencing darkness..that His light will dispel all darkness. May His acceptance, love and grace be with u!

some quick ramblings

Busy day in the office but also quite happy, we had quite a good lunch. I coordinated pizza and sushi for our lunch "party". Plus ice cream and cake! =) I'm so full burp..! Quite glad that over these few days my friendship with the other colleagues became stronger, and we even call each other "jie meis"=sisters. Its really great joking and laughing with them..and being stressed together. Anyway a manager just left so there is high stress level here. =P

I'm going through some transition. Will share more abt the decision that I made next time. (btw, in case u are wondering, nope..I'm not getting married!) And as I go thru this transition..its really quite a difficult time..coping with self doubts and negative thoughts and an inner turmoil within me. I thought before..that when Jesus was on the cross, and there and then, did He ever doubt that He was the son of God? I always thought He didn't. I don't know if He did. But I can imagine the feeling...of believing in something, and yet ple around u tink differently or don't believe in what u believe in. Or perhaps..living out a vision that God has given to u. But only you yrself know the vision..and then its all betwn u and the Lord. Somewhat inexplicable. But I know this is gonna be good. And I pray that God, You will give me the strength and a close walk with You to understand what u have really called me to. =) And this blessed Christmas..thank you for sending yr son. Thank you for your precious gift of life.

Its monday!

Hi Good morning!
Its monday morning and I'm in my office typing this blog. =) Unlike other mondays, this monday feels a little different. Cos I'm going through some transitions in my life. Have been praying and asking God for direction for a few months, and I finally made a decision on saturday!

It has been a tough year for me, at the beginning of the year rushing my thesis, and then busy with ministry and family and then entering the work force in May! Unlike other christmases where I would be enjoying my school holidays, this year I am not on holiday and can only do my christmas shopping on saturday! =P And for the first time, I'm not writing christmas cards to all my frens, except for a few close ones.

I love the christmasy mood every year..walking down orchard road and basking under the lights, and listening to our all time favourite christmas carols. There's one christmas song in particular that I really like, its name its called Night Divine. Christmas!! A holy night...and a new
beginning, a new birth. =)

So anyway in prep for christmas, here's wishing all my readers a blessed one. And may u also discover a new birth!

Its the time of the year again to do reflections...which I will do in the next few days time! And for new resolutions! =)

Suffering and Joy

I woke up this morning at 655am, which is rare, cos normally when the alarm blasts at 7am, I would still be in deep sleep. I dreamt a very weird dream, I dreamt of my grandma..and we, her grandchildren were clamouring around her. And then I was showing my cousins some photos...think wanted to show them a picture of my bf taken with the family. Strange dream. SIgh, my grandma already passed away few years ago.
Not sure if this dream was meant for anything. If anything, I think it speaks of treasuring yr loved ones.

Been reading up some christian books. I am currently reading a book by John Piper, "Desiring God". Its an interesting book, cos it provides a different perspective. It says that we bring the most glory to God when we are satisfied in Him (or smthing like that...I'm paraphrasing). He calls himself a "christian Hedonist". heh..sounds strange, but as I read more, I realised what he meant. Anyway these days, I finally understand what it means to serve out of a position of rest. That was wat Paul (my fren fr VCF) prayed for me 2 years ago. Paul (fr bible), says that he is hard pressed on every side, and yet he knows that nothing can separate him fr the love of God. Paul poured out his life in serving God..thru trials, tribulations, testings, imprisonments, and yet surely he also felt joy in his heart. How do we as christians reconcile joy and suffering together? Piper said elsewhere that we might be filled with burden for the ple we are serving but yet looking in macro perspective and God's wonderful work, our hearts are also filled with a joy.

This seems like a series of thoughts all over. Okie time for work. YAWN..not enuff sleep...sob sob. Hard pressed on every side. But like Paul, may I (and you) be filled with joy and the love of God. The Father's love. My Abba Father. Knowing that He cares for me.

Overwhelmed

A little overwhelmed this week with late nites..prayer meeting and leaders meeting..slept at 130am for two nites. :( Then today had OT until 830pm..reached home and bathed and ate and it was 10pm. Realised that my dad tried to tidy up my drawer and kinda took my stuff out and placed them elsewhere. And suddenly the emotions came flooding all over me and I felt so super duper tired. So I went to worship and played my guitar. =) feel much better....and thank God for my dear who was there for me too!

I was reading this verse just now:
But now, thus says the Lord, who created you, O Jacob, And He who formed you, O Israel: "Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine. 2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you.

Okie good nite! =)

Chalet and all...

We had a CG chalet fr Thursday to Sat morning..to celebrate 3 of the members birthday, and it was nice....to play, bbq, walk at kelong and game...and playing board games etc. Really quite glad it worked out in the end. =) Was really glad that Jonathan came over to help, and he was really great help in the end...helping to bbq the food and clearing up, and also helping me think of games. I'm really so touched that he fasted 3 days for the chalet. =) Even though he was having his own issues. Yups...aniwae thursday night CG was fantastic, cos I could see the mbrs were being ministered to by God and encouraged. Hope that everyone will press on!

I took 1 day off today...post chalet rest! Been so busy organizing it...then anyway I went out with Jon, he had a free voucher for a buffet lunch! And we went to visit Rama, whom he met at Macdonalds before. He stays in one room flat, has problems with his left hand and isn't able to find a job. So Jon got him canned food and also a mattress to sleep on, and we prayed together for him. It was really nice. Fulfilling wat the bible calls us to do, meeting the needs of the poor! =) Yups...we are thinking of doing more, maybe giving out xmas gifts to the neighbourhood near christmas? Feel so happy thinking abt that.

So the big question, why did Miss Ng get attached to a guy she only knew for such a short time. Is it too fast? =) I guess that time by itself is not the sole factor. But the chemistry, compatibility and vision is there. We both want to do something for the ple who hurt, and we share many similarities. And the chemistry is there. This is not a rash decision. In fact I find it rather divine. Today I stumbled upon his prayer diary and as I looked at his prayer requests, I feel that he is such a godly man. We also visited christian bookshops and browsed at books...heh, jon is a guy who likes to read! Me too! I guess as we know each other better each day, we just love each other more. This may sound totally mushy..but I do feel that the whole thing is so divine. =) And I am happy that God is a provider, even for relationships.

Who is my boyfriend Jonathan. Just a short intro, he is 26 this year, and he studied political science and development in University of New South Wales. His chinese is not very good..I'm gonna give him chinese tuition. He is fr Trinity Christian Centre. He is very interested in development, and helping the poor, so is looking for a job that is related to that. =) Anything else u need to know, just ask me!

Yup it has been a wonderful weekend, and tmr I'm back to work. :) Hope that I will have a great week ahead. :)

Happy and blessed girl!!

Hello...this is gonna be a short post...but I just wanted to share with my dear blog readers that, I have found the man that I wanna spend my life with! :) Heh. And I am really blessed. =) And really happy. After giving 23 years of my life to serve God..God is so good...and then there were times when I was tempted to compromise on relationships, to choose guys who were non christians or nominal christians..and there were all sorts of struggles. Now I know why, that it is all a preparation for the right person at the right time. I'm really v blessed and amazed by how good God is!! And I am happy! =)