It was kinda surreal today. Went to the Bridal Shop to try my Bridesmaid dress, as my best friend Huiyun is getting married on 27th Dec! :) Saw her wedding photos and went to her in-laws house. Such a lot of details to fuss about the wedding preparations. I'm amused and happy at the same time because my friend since 13 years old has grown up. ;p I feel a lump in my throat...
It has been another challenging work week. But I also saw God's providence in different ways. Esp at points when I felt so stretched that I didn't know what to do, but He knew and provided. So giving thanks for that. I miss the luxurious time of just sitting there to contemplate about God and life. At times, I wished I had someone to walk through this time with me, to process with me, and to talk about the things that are happening. The someone doesn't have to say many things, just has to listen and to ask questions. I'm dying to talk about the things that are happening, cos everyday there's just drama going on in the office. And so many exciting things happening in the fields overseas, so many different open doors. And then so many disappointing things too that happen in the organization as I relate to different people and situations.
At other times, I think this is a season of growing up. And learning to be my own friend. Learning to know God as my Father and my friend.
Reading Pastor Edmund's Growing Deep in God has been good. He wrote abt prayer not as a resource, but prayer to find God. I really want to have that close and intimate walk with God. But I also yearn for intimate friendships and people I can grow with.
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Xiaojia! keep on sharing in your blog... just sense a beautiful story in the making... of what our Father's doing in your life. :)
wow!! huiyun is getting married!!!
I have been visiting your blog occasionally (after chancing upon it some time back - I hope you don't mind) to read about God's work in your life. Thought I'd drop a line to encourage you a little. It is moving to read about how you seek His will in your life and I'm sure it must be rewarding for you to see His work at the frontiers of His ministry. Having someone whom you can relate comfortably to, will be a source of comfort, especially as the challenges at work tire you out. I had someone who did just that - just listen and not say much - during a period of time last year when I had to make a critical trip out. I am grateful for someone to walk with. But I suppose the listening-and-not-saying-much eventually wore him out. This year, even as I no longer had that somebody to walk with, as I embarked on yet another trip fraught with greater difficulties, I was reminded that Jesus was with me. On days when I asked God if I had got it all wrong again, He sent little signs to guide and reassure. Seek Him first and continue to pray. I believe someday He will lead you to more people who will serve and walk together with you.
Smaine- Yes :) Wedding bells ringing!
Bro Yeuann- Thanks for yr encouragement and for seeing the positive side of things!
Anon- hi! U are welcome to visit my blog. Thank u for yr encouragement. And glad that u have also walked through this path. Do you have a blog that I can visit as well?
sorry, i closed my blog some time back because i had been too busy to upkeep it.
anyhow, have a blessed christmas!
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