不凡的爱

I've been feeling particularly discouraged and tired for the past few weeks, and the past few days has been really intensive. I feel up to my neck choked with work. And thank God for my friends who have been bearing with my complaining and whining. =D Yah, work has been really difficult for me, and I'm going thru a stressful season.
But no, in this blog I'm not going to be complaining, but sharing some things I did while at Jakarta and Jogjakarta over the weekend for work with my boss! =) We started on a 745am flight, and came back 12am on Sunday, so it was very intensive and tiring. But we really did meet some really good people.
In particular, we went to this rehabilitation centre for the disabled http://www.rehabilitasi-yakkum.or.id/ It was particularly touching for me, seeing the disabled singing and dancing, with joy and pride =) There was this tension, cos I didn't want to feel pity. What I really wanted to be able to do was to look at them human to human, and appreciate their singing and dancing. So I was thinking about what I really felt. But what really welled up strongly on the inside was thankfulness for the love that the christian organization showed towards the disabled. They also have work in Nias, and the director said due to the earthquake, many became disabled, even tho they cld be treated, ignorance caused people to become disabled. And then marginalised, and rejected of proper education. =S

So anyway we had meetings with a school as well, to discuss plans for our ministry. On Sat night, I only slept for abt 3 hrs! And by the time I got back on Sunday, I was zonked out. And Monday I felt very melancholic....and tired...and alone in my work. I'm not sure if it is a spiritual attack, but I think due to the nature of the work, it really gets tiring....and supportive structures are very important. I wish I had my peers to discuss my projects with.

Emotional resilience...is something I hope to build up.

So ending this post by giving thanks......for little minor concessions. A impt meeting was last min cancelled, so I got more air to breathe this week. And then some proposals are going on well.... Exciting opportunities ahead for the ministry. =)

I like the current drama on Channel 8 now, called By my side (Bu Fan de ai), a pun on the male lead whose name is Fan. He got AIDs due to sleeping w a prostitute 6 years ago or something. And it really shows how irreversible some mistakes are. But this drama really made me think abt the stigma that people with HIV positive go through, and it makes me wonder how much I myself would accept them. Its something that I really want to pray abt bcos the ministry to the marginalized often involves dealing with people HIV positive, many times bcos they are victims of child prostitution/forced prostitution etc. It was strange today Getreal! was talking abt Philippines women who got tricked into prostitution, and I was watching it over dinner. Strange bcos my dad rarely watches such shows, and the documentary timing fell right smack into my dinner timing. =D

So here are some reflections I have for the day. Tmr its another day of intensive work with a night meeting, and I'm stressed. But I am thankful, and I shall trust in God's faithfulness to see me through. I pray He will speak to me afresh.