These days I haven't been blogging as much cos I've been seeking solace in reading and asking God about things. :) It is in this quiet secret place where I find God near to me, and yet not so near cos sometimes my mind spins too fast and thinks too much about many things.
For one, I don't really like carrying uncertainty and like to have answers asap! Just seeking God about some stuffs, and still find that I'm not really getting the answers yet. But yet this season of just waiting on Him, reading books, has been really edifying to my soul. :) Been reading my bible daily too, trying to finish up the One year bible this year, and now I'm at Exodus reading on my favourite character Moses!
In Genesis, God's covenant love is revealed time and time again through His divine protection over His people, in spite of their disobedience, pride, deceit etc etc. U find miracles going on in one chapt, and then the next, God's people turn away from Him. Such an awesome God we serve, who loves us unceasingly.
For me, the miracle God just did in my family, changing my dad's heart, from wanting to chase me out of the house if I wanted to go into social sector, to now really like asking me if I want to go full time. I'm amazed! :) But almost in the next couple of days, fears start to creep into my heart, and I wonder if God will provide, if He is big enough for me! And lots of things revealed in my heart, a lot of insecurity and esteem problems on the inside, that God has to deal with, gently but lovingly.
I know God loves me in spite of all I am. And wow, Jesus no longer calls us His servant, but His friend, and we have a God whom we can call Abba Father.
Just wanted to encourage my blog readers too who are reading this, God is faithful and loves you a lot. :)
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Thanksgiving....
All the unpacking has been done, and my parents are starting to get used to staying in the new house! Tho mummy has trouble with the new washing machine, and rain sometimes pours in and wets the dried clothes. But really, the challenging times have passed. And yep, we are waiting for Chinese New Year to come! Yay. :) I believe its a new year of new beginnings.
At work, my project will go live this Friday, so any issues will be found out then and also on next Mon and Tues, but I'm thankful that it is coming into completion after about 8 months of hard work!
At church, it has been a whole new experience serving in the discipleship group. :) Slowly learning to get to know one another. Learning to lean on God's strength. Growing much from the daily readings and devotional journals.
And so 2007 went by, yes yes I'm still reminiscing cos I didn't have enough time to think about it! ahahaa. I'm praying for a fruitful 2008. A year of preparation. :)
One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek him in his temple. For in the day of trouble he will keep me safe in his dwelling; he will hide me in the shelter of his tabernacle and set me high upon a rock
Ps 27:4-6
At the middle of 2007, God spoke to me through this psalm, and it was only around the end of 2007 that I read Pastor Kai's devotions, that I realised what God was trying to say. That in spite of all the uncertainties going ard us, one thing we can be secure in, is to be able to dwell in the house of the Lord. It is in His secret dwelling place where we can find solace and comfort. And ofcos, yes, strength to do what He calls us to do.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Because He first loved us
With the impending change, my heart is filled with a mixture of awe, excitement, surprise, yet some apprehension and fear as well!
God has been good, He indeed works within the hearts of humans. I'm thankful. :)
As I sought the Lord and asked Him what I can do for Him? At first it was, I really want to do something for You God, I want to serve Your people...I I I I...and myself...and my sacrifices. And then I realised that it was not because of I, but it was a joy, bcos He first loved us, so we can love others. These days I'm reminded of the parable of a man who found the precious pearl, and sold all that he had. Indeed, the value of the lovely pearl exeeds anything that others can give, whether it is fame, fortune, status etc etc. I admit though, pulling at the heart strings are feelings of sentimentalism.
Heh, the above wouldn't make sense to my blog readers, not until anything I do is concretised anyway. =)
"But more deeply, in order for you to be useful to the Master here- or anywhere- you must be close to Him and in love with Him. To the degree that you are intimate with Him, you will know what to do, what you must do."
Heidi Baker
God has been good, He indeed works within the hearts of humans. I'm thankful. :)
As I sought the Lord and asked Him what I can do for Him? At first it was, I really want to do something for You God, I want to serve Your people...I I I I...and myself...and my sacrifices. And then I realised that it was not because of I, but it was a joy, bcos He first loved us, so we can love others. These days I'm reminded of the parable of a man who found the precious pearl, and sold all that he had. Indeed, the value of the lovely pearl exeeds anything that others can give, whether it is fame, fortune, status etc etc. I admit though, pulling at the heart strings are feelings of sentimentalism.
Heh, the above wouldn't make sense to my blog readers, not until anything I do is concretised anyway. =)
"But more deeply, in order for you to be useful to the Master here- or anywhere- you must be close to Him and in love with Him. To the degree that you are intimate with Him, you will know what to do, what you must do."
Heidi Baker
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Mini-town
My house is located near the construction site of a condominium. Many foreign workers work at the site, I'm not sure, maybe from China, Bangladesh and India? Sometimes a few of the workers sit at the grass patch outside chatting, I saw one of them sitting on the floor and writing in his notepad yesterday. And there's usually a silent communication betw us as we don't speak to each other but glance at each other because afterall we look so different!
Anyhow I always get a peak into the construction site as I walk past, and it looks like a mini town center of its own sorts! It seems like a mini town because there is life within the construction site as the workers hussle and bustle and cook and live there. It somehow stands in isolation as people walk past. It reminds me of the days in Philippines when we went to build the houses. Cement is being made in those big barrel kinda thing on the trucks and then we queued for cement in the philippines!
The workers work long hours, sometimes when I am back at 9pm, I still see dark figures up above the incomplete buildiing. They work so hard!
I wonder if the gap of gender, culture, race, nationality between us will be bridged.
The nearest experience I had to know ple from diversed backgrounds was knowing Pastor Don's team of brothers. Some had been ex-offenders and drug addicts. But wow, it was nice relating to them, and esp over the one day trip at indonesia, we made friends. In Christ, these false divisions betw ple have to fall. In Christ, the man next to you, whether from which country or race, is a fellow brother and sister redeemed by Christ. And we relate to one another as human beings. I wonder if I am putting up a false segregation of sorts. But I wonder if we will ever step into someone else's boat and see the world from there (or can we not be bothered?). Just like Jesus, stepping into Peter's fishing boat that very day, and came not with pomp or glory, but as a human being. Maybe we are men with poor souls in rich clothings.
How amazing it will be in heaven whereby all tongues, tribes and nations shall worship our living God. :)
Anyhow I always get a peak into the construction site as I walk past, and it looks like a mini town center of its own sorts! It seems like a mini town because there is life within the construction site as the workers hussle and bustle and cook and live there. It somehow stands in isolation as people walk past. It reminds me of the days in Philippines when we went to build the houses. Cement is being made in those big barrel kinda thing on the trucks and then we queued for cement in the philippines!
The workers work long hours, sometimes when I am back at 9pm, I still see dark figures up above the incomplete buildiing. They work so hard!
I wonder if the gap of gender, culture, race, nationality between us will be bridged.
The nearest experience I had to know ple from diversed backgrounds was knowing Pastor Don's team of brothers. Some had been ex-offenders and drug addicts. But wow, it was nice relating to them, and esp over the one day trip at indonesia, we made friends. In Christ, these false divisions betw ple have to fall. In Christ, the man next to you, whether from which country or race, is a fellow brother and sister redeemed by Christ. And we relate to one another as human beings. I wonder if I am putting up a false segregation of sorts. But I wonder if we will ever step into someone else's boat and see the world from there (or can we not be bothered?). Just like Jesus, stepping into Peter's fishing boat that very day, and came not with pomp or glory, but as a human being. Maybe we are men with poor souls in rich clothings.
How amazing it will be in heaven whereby all tongues, tribes and nations shall worship our living God. :)
Monday, January 14, 2008
Upcoming plans!
heys...I havent been blogging here for some time, cos I have been writting at my christian blog. Since the discussions there are more christian, u may go take a look if u r interested! [ U would have known the link ;) If not, ask me]
Life has been busy, adjusting to the new house, the new year, and planning for the new year! :) Not sure what to expect but it sure looks like a brand new beginning! I hope it wun drift pass unknowingly!
This year:
- Learn more about God and His word through IDT
- Learn from my peers through sharings in IDT, and challenge each other to become more Christ-like
- More ministry to the broken
- Learn guitar-> hope to be able to praise and worship God, and sing to Him together with others. Music brings much healing to the soul
- Do more housework (hopefully this will earn me brownie pts!!) Parents are growing older, and I hope that we may grow in understanding abt our goals & dreams
That's about it for now!
Life has been busy, adjusting to the new house, the new year, and planning for the new year! :) Not sure what to expect but it sure looks like a brand new beginning! I hope it wun drift pass unknowingly!
This year:
- Learn more about God and His word through IDT
- Learn from my peers through sharings in IDT, and challenge each other to become more Christ-like
- More ministry to the broken
- Learn guitar-> hope to be able to praise and worship God, and sing to Him together with others. Music brings much healing to the soul
- Do more housework (hopefully this will earn me brownie pts!!) Parents are growing older, and I hope that we may grow in understanding abt our goals & dreams
That's about it for now!
Saturday, January 05, 2008
Welcome 2008!
Said my welcome to 2008 at Dawn Prayers in CEFC. Started at 6am, so I woke up at 445am. Tossed and turned in my bed from about 11ish up to 1plus am. So it was a feat waking up. And praise God, I got to take a ride on a friend's car. Surprised by Pastor Edmund's opening prayer, "Happy New Year God." haha. That sounded a bit strange. Other then that Dawn Prayer was very very good and refreshing.
2008 looks like a very busy year for me. The overflowing events of 2007 into 2008 is regretful! No fullstops there, still packing my room. Thankfully I only have one box of letters and some adhoc stuff left to pack. Went to church just now, and then came home and packed again. I'm pretty exhausted. Still have not yet had time to sit down and be still. But yes, church has been good, and in those moments, I find rest.
I will be in Intentional Discipleship Training (IDT) starting on 11th Jan. Its a training program including weekly bible studies at church on fridays, daily devotional homework and memory verses. Its sounds pretty heavy going! But yet I am excited to be able to re-learn about God, from the basics all the way to everything. Will also be serving as a leader, so I am pretty excited to serve again, to be able (I hope) to be a blessing to others, and to learn from others.
Woke up one of the mornings a few days ago, and felt impressed upon my heart this verse:
"Arise, shine; For your light has come!"
Upon referencing to the verse, this was wat it followed up with:
"And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you. 2 For behold, the darkness shall cover the earth, And deep darkness the people; But the Lord will arise over you, And His glory will be seen upon you. 3 The Gentiles shall come to your light, And kings to the brightness of your rising."
Isaiah 60:1-3
Wow it was a pretty encouraging verse for me. 2007 has been a very difficult year, cried a lot, and "gave" up on things I really liked. Now I feel at peace. And this verse speaks to me of the new hope in 2008. 2008 is a year of preparation.
Prepare for what, I am not too sure. But I know that IDT will be good training in the word. Will also be going on another mission trip with my cell members, leading it with Pam. I think that these will be good preparation for whats ahead. And also, I think I will try and do more housework at home, and to be a blessing to my family.
2008 looks like a very busy year for me. The overflowing events of 2007 into 2008 is regretful! No fullstops there, still packing my room. Thankfully I only have one box of letters and some adhoc stuff left to pack. Went to church just now, and then came home and packed again. I'm pretty exhausted. Still have not yet had time to sit down and be still. But yes, church has been good, and in those moments, I find rest.
I will be in Intentional Discipleship Training (IDT) starting on 11th Jan. Its a training program including weekly bible studies at church on fridays, daily devotional homework and memory verses. Its sounds pretty heavy going! But yet I am excited to be able to re-learn about God, from the basics all the way to everything. Will also be serving as a leader, so I am pretty excited to serve again, to be able (I hope) to be a blessing to others, and to learn from others.
Woke up one of the mornings a few days ago, and felt impressed upon my heart this verse:
"Arise, shine; For your light has come!"
Upon referencing to the verse, this was wat it followed up with:
"And the glory of the Lord is risen upon you. 2 For behold, the darkness shall cover the earth, And deep darkness the people; But the Lord will arise over you, And His glory will be seen upon you. 3 The Gentiles shall come to your light, And kings to the brightness of your rising."
Isaiah 60:1-3
Wow it was a pretty encouraging verse for me. 2007 has been a very difficult year, cried a lot, and "gave" up on things I really liked. Now I feel at peace. And this verse speaks to me of the new hope in 2008. 2008 is a year of preparation.
Prepare for what, I am not too sure. But I know that IDT will be good training in the word. Will also be going on another mission trip with my cell members, leading it with Pam. I think that these will be good preparation for whats ahead. And also, I think I will try and do more housework at home, and to be a blessing to my family.
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