Back fr the gym, had a good workout and tried the steam bath for a few minutes. =)
Switched on my comp, and played the song "Waiting for You" again. Its truly therapeutic. The flood gates opened again out of nowhere.
Because, love is, wanting the best for the other. And knowing that God is shaping the heart. The best may not be each other, who knows? But love means being willing to let go for the good of the other. It means entrusting the things u love to a faithful God who loves.
Waiting For You
John Lim & Clarissa Chng
Her:
Restless heart can’t get to sleep again
Thinking back to all the days I wasted
Empty doors one blank page after the next
Always knowing something better was ahead
Him:
On my own calling to God again
Asking Lord please take away this pain
Is this truly how you want my life to be
Father please don’t turn your face away from me
Then in the quiet of my soul
Jesus whispered the song I one day will know
Chorus
Her:
Every moment led me to you
Every night spent hoping for love
Every cry to God who was shaping our love in His hand
Him:
Every heartache waiting to heal
Every tear spent longing for you
Every day I’m seeing what I now know to be true
I was waiting for you
Together:
Break of dawn my heart is alive again
Looking back yes Jesus had a plan
All the times I thought it might had been too late
God was moulding me for someone worth the wait
Him:
Then in the quiet of my soul
(Her: Deep in my heart)
Jesus whispers the song that I now truly know
Her:
Every moment led me to you
Every night spent hoping for love
Every cry to God who was shaping our love in His hand
Him:
Every heartache waiting to heal
(Her: God has healed my pain)
Every tear spent longing for you
Every day I’m seeing what I now know to be true
Together:
Every faithful beat of my heart
Every memory waiting to start
Every road to come back God will lead us to each‘otherI’ll be waiting with you
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Leaning on His grace
It has been a tiring week, and I am experiencing the fatigue. Boo. Feel that it is difficult to keep my eyes open and I feel so sleepy! :P Tonight I am going to the Singapore Flyers with Jas, won the tickets cos of my Japan tour. I'm looking forward to it.
In spite of the busyness, tight deadlines, stress, separation from loved ones, tough relationships at work, steep learning curves and all (I could rant on and on), I experienced God's grace this week. I think He is bringing light into the darkness, and clarity to many things about my life. Past memories keep flooding back. Past decisions, hurts, sadness keep flooding back. And He is healing those areas. Just holding me in His big loving arms, and showing me that I am His beautiful girl. =) Its really lovely and sweet. Its like His grace buffering me up in the air. Thank God for friendships, like my ex-colleague who smsed me and asked How I was, out of nowhere. She felt a burden to sms me. That encouraged me, cos I knew it was God who had remembered, and remembers me. Other then that, Im also thankful for some colleagues at the office, esp M for his encouragement. :) And yup, for the course I am attending now every wed, the group has been a pillar of support. Its nice in all, to be on the receiving end. :P
So yup....I am trying to keep awake now and to plough through the emails that are flooding my inbox, that needs to be replied with lots of tact, love and wisdom. TGIS.....its Sun tmr and then Mon break. =)
Tmr is the last service I am attending at Bukit Panjang. Next sunday onwards, the church is starting a new service in the Woodlands building, and I will be moving to Woodlands. There are plans to reach out to the schools ard the area. There is a sense of dejavu because for the 8 years I spent in CHC, we moved 2 times. And yup, I had poured lots of heart and money into the building at Jurong. This time things seem to move so fast that I have yet to reconcile the mixture of feelings on the inside. I don't seem to be thinking too much about it, subconsciously it is the bad memories that I don't want to recall. But it is not in shutting out the past that we receive healing, but really in reconciliation with the past that we can move on with the future. Its the same not just for church, but also for relationships. The words spoken that had hurt, the people whom I cherished, these memories have to be faced. And yup, may He bring new beginnings and directions as I let go of the past and look to the future He has in stored. Amen.
In spite of the busyness, tight deadlines, stress, separation from loved ones, tough relationships at work, steep learning curves and all (I could rant on and on), I experienced God's grace this week. I think He is bringing light into the darkness, and clarity to many things about my life. Past memories keep flooding back. Past decisions, hurts, sadness keep flooding back. And He is healing those areas. Just holding me in His big loving arms, and showing me that I am His beautiful girl. =) Its really lovely and sweet. Its like His grace buffering me up in the air. Thank God for friendships, like my ex-colleague who smsed me and asked How I was, out of nowhere. She felt a burden to sms me. That encouraged me, cos I knew it was God who had remembered, and remembers me. Other then that, Im also thankful for some colleagues at the office, esp M for his encouragement. :) And yup, for the course I am attending now every wed, the group has been a pillar of support. Its nice in all, to be on the receiving end. :P
So yup....I am trying to keep awake now and to plough through the emails that are flooding my inbox, that needs to be replied with lots of tact, love and wisdom. TGIS.....its Sun tmr and then Mon break. =)
Tmr is the last service I am attending at Bukit Panjang. Next sunday onwards, the church is starting a new service in the Woodlands building, and I will be moving to Woodlands. There are plans to reach out to the schools ard the area. There is a sense of dejavu because for the 8 years I spent in CHC, we moved 2 times. And yup, I had poured lots of heart and money into the building at Jurong. This time things seem to move so fast that I have yet to reconcile the mixture of feelings on the inside. I don't seem to be thinking too much about it, subconsciously it is the bad memories that I don't want to recall. But it is not in shutting out the past that we receive healing, but really in reconciliation with the past that we can move on with the future. Its the same not just for church, but also for relationships. The words spoken that had hurt, the people whom I cherished, these memories have to be faced. And yup, may He bring new beginnings and directions as I let go of the past and look to the future He has in stored. Amen.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Single-minded pursuit
I haven't been blogging here for some time. =) Maybe one day I will just merge my spiritual blog with this, cos sometimes hard to segregate spiritual posts out. Everything abt life is linked to the spiritual. ;p
Other then being busy with work, I've been going to the gym! =)Did u know that when u exercise, it emits Endorphins which is supposed to make u happy?
I'm in a very precious season in my life, having a work which I am passionate about, a ministry to serve in. Thankful for that. I could like emerge myself in work, and be consumed. But I am guarding myself from doing that. One thing I really like to do in this season of my life, is to learn to abide in Jesus. To have a heart that belongs to Him, that pursues Him, and is satisfied in Him.
All my life, I've been searching and searching for significance in relationships, work or ministry. Esp in relationships, because of this yearning for significance, I find that it is easy for me to develop liking for people. It touches my heart easily when someone is kind to me, or supports me emotionally. ;p It was only recently when I met a friend, that I realised how precious my heart is, esp to God. And how I need to guard it and not give it away too easily. I am thankful for that. =) Have since written down a list of criteria that I hope for in a man.
But this season, is precious. Just learning to let Jesus fill my heart. I pray and hope for intimacy with Him. Not significance or value in other places, but in Him. Not immersing myself in ministry, but serving from a relationship with Him. I hope to find that joy of salvation, of living, of abiding. =) I know it is Him upholding me with His grace. Thank You Lord.
Hopefully, I may also outflow His love to the people around me, and bear much fruit in ministry.
I'm excited cos this week I am going for Go Forth Conference! Will be going for the workshops, and my boss will be speaking at one of the seminar sessions on Wed. I was thankful cos last week she prayed for me, for anointing, and for my eyes to see that God had called me for a time as this.
Such a time as this indeed...I'm trusting in Him.
Other then being busy with work, I've been going to the gym! =)Did u know that when u exercise, it emits Endorphins which is supposed to make u happy?
I'm in a very precious season in my life, having a work which I am passionate about, a ministry to serve in. Thankful for that. I could like emerge myself in work, and be consumed. But I am guarding myself from doing that. One thing I really like to do in this season of my life, is to learn to abide in Jesus. To have a heart that belongs to Him, that pursues Him, and is satisfied in Him.
All my life, I've been searching and searching for significance in relationships, work or ministry. Esp in relationships, because of this yearning for significance, I find that it is easy for me to develop liking for people. It touches my heart easily when someone is kind to me, or supports me emotionally. ;p It was only recently when I met a friend, that I realised how precious my heart is, esp to God. And how I need to guard it and not give it away too easily. I am thankful for that. =) Have since written down a list of criteria that I hope for in a man.
But this season, is precious. Just learning to let Jesus fill my heart. I pray and hope for intimacy with Him. Not significance or value in other places, but in Him. Not immersing myself in ministry, but serving from a relationship with Him. I hope to find that joy of salvation, of living, of abiding. =) I know it is Him upholding me with His grace. Thank You Lord.
Hopefully, I may also outflow His love to the people around me, and bear much fruit in ministry.
I'm excited cos this week I am going for Go Forth Conference! Will be going for the workshops, and my boss will be speaking at one of the seminar sessions on Wed. I was thankful cos last week she prayed for me, for anointing, and for my eyes to see that God had called me for a time as this.
Such a time as this indeed...I'm trusting in Him.
Friday, July 04, 2008
Joyful little things
In a course I went to at church, the facilitator asked us to think of things that made us happy when we were children. :) It took me a while to think of it. But she played this song from Snoppy called "Happiness", and I found it really nice (pardon me for lack of a better adjective ;0) . Here goes:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hKKjqzkGo3o&feature=related
Happiness, is finding a pencil, pizza with sausage, telling the time...
Happiness, is learning to whistle, tying your shoes for the very first time...
Happiness, is playing the drums in your own school band, and happiness is walking hand in hand.
Happiness, is two kinds of ice cream, knowing a secret, climbing a tree...
Happiness, is five different crayons, catching a firefly, setting him free...
Happiness, is being alone every now, and then, and happiness, is coming home again.
Happiness, is morning and evening, daytime and nighttime too!
For happiness, is anyone, and anything, at all, that's loved, by you!
Happiness, is having a sister, sharing a sandwich, getting along!
Happiness, is growing vegetables, playing games, singing a song!
Happiness, is singing together when day, is through, and happiness, is anyone and anything at all, that's loved bye you!
Happiness, is morning and evening, daytime and nighttime too!
And happiness, is anyone, and anything at all, that's loved by you!
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I liked the lyrics. And it made me think of little things I enjoyed as a child. Realise that in our memories, we often retain sad/unhappy memories more than happy ones. But as the song was being played, I remembered being happy as a little girl, playing 5 stones, hop skotch, barbie dolls and cooking with my sis, badminton with my parents at east coast beach etc etc. ;) I remembered a part of my life that I had chucked away somewhere.
We also talked about things that makes us happy now. ;) Wasn't hard to think, for me, it was the sea, the sky, the mountains, a book, a friend, cats....etc.
A fren named my mum's cooking for me as 爱心餐. For those whose chinese is not so good... It basically means food prepared with love. Realise that all along, I've been thinking its so restrictive that I have to come home for dinner, and if I can't come bk, I gotto tell my mum I'm not eating. But when my fren pointed out he hardly got to eat at home, I realised that it was a privilege to be able to eat my mum's cooking everyday, to have a house to go back to.
And maybe, it is just these simple things that makes us happy. Just being able to enjoy each moment, giving thanks for the little things. Those joyful little things that makes us laugh. =)
Just like that day, when the ice-cream man came to my workplace, and I ate the raspberry ice-cream in wafers (u know the one that comes in a square block?). I was so happy!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hKKjqzkGo3o&feature=related
Happiness, is finding a pencil, pizza with sausage, telling the time...
Happiness, is learning to whistle, tying your shoes for the very first time...
Happiness, is playing the drums in your own school band, and happiness is walking hand in hand.
Happiness, is two kinds of ice cream, knowing a secret, climbing a tree...
Happiness, is five different crayons, catching a firefly, setting him free...
Happiness, is being alone every now, and then, and happiness, is coming home again.
Happiness, is morning and evening, daytime and nighttime too!
For happiness, is anyone, and anything, at all, that's loved, by you!
Happiness, is having a sister, sharing a sandwich, getting along!
Happiness, is growing vegetables, playing games, singing a song!
Happiness, is singing together when day, is through, and happiness, is anyone and anything at all, that's loved bye you!
Happiness, is morning and evening, daytime and nighttime too!
And happiness, is anyone, and anything at all, that's loved by you!
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I liked the lyrics. And it made me think of little things I enjoyed as a child. Realise that in our memories, we often retain sad/unhappy memories more than happy ones. But as the song was being played, I remembered being happy as a little girl, playing 5 stones, hop skotch, barbie dolls and cooking with my sis, badminton with my parents at east coast beach etc etc. ;) I remembered a part of my life that I had chucked away somewhere.
We also talked about things that makes us happy now. ;) Wasn't hard to think, for me, it was the sea, the sky, the mountains, a book, a friend, cats....etc.
A fren named my mum's cooking for me as 爱心餐. For those whose chinese is not so good... It basically means food prepared with love. Realise that all along, I've been thinking its so restrictive that I have to come home for dinner, and if I can't come bk, I gotto tell my mum I'm not eating. But when my fren pointed out he hardly got to eat at home, I realised that it was a privilege to be able to eat my mum's cooking everyday, to have a house to go back to.
And maybe, it is just these simple things that makes us happy. Just being able to enjoy each moment, giving thanks for the little things. Those joyful little things that makes us laugh. =)
Just like that day, when the ice-cream man came to my workplace, and I ate the raspberry ice-cream in wafers (u know the one that comes in a square block?). I was so happy!
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