When I am awake, I am still with You...

Grateful for the long CNY break, starting with a halfday on Friday, all the way to Tuesday. 4.5 days of break! Yeah! Managed to catch 2 movies - one with my mum until 2am, about a not-so-pretty lady who went for a full cosmetic surgery & slimming operation, and became like a babe. Anyway, there was a lot of pain & esteem issues abt not looking pretty, in the way that every girl wants to look beautiful. Beauty is only skin deep, but people judge you by your appearences. One of the most lovely thing was I woke up with Ps 139 on Monday.
I liked this: I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

But the verse that I woke up with was this:
Where can I go from your Spirit?

Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there;

if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

...

When I awake,

I am still with you.

What I really liked abt CNY hols was I got to spend a lot of time with my family. I spent the whole of Monday at home as some people came for visitation. Other than church, the rest of Sunday was also spent with family on visitation. And this year, it seems that my eyes have become more opened, in that I don't just see my uncle and aunties as just relatives..I see that they are people with their sets of struggles and pains and joys. I think it really helps working in an organization whereby your have colleagues and partners who are in their 40s and 50s.

Slept quite a bit...but the wrinkes and dark eyerings under my eyes dont seem to be fading away...if anything, they seem to be increasing in creases. WHY! Sobs... Eyecreams dont seem to work.

Yup..back to work!

He is faithful

This morning my colleague passed me a note of encouragement, abt seeing joy on my face for the past 2 weeks, and quoting verse in Isaiah that says we will go forth with joy. Thankful...she said she was encouraged by me too, seeing that one does not need to be dragged down and bitter due to one's environment. :) I'm so happy.
Breakthrough2, we had an open and authentic meeting with a partner we have been working with to organize school trips. It has been stressful cos we do not have the capacity to host too many teams in Cambodia. But it was good we could share about what we knew about the ground and how we could better work together to meet needs on the ground. She even said she would help us work on a English syllabus for our children in Cambodia that teams could use when they go.
Third breakthrough, we have been rallying teams to go to Indonesia, and in June we are having 3 GB teams going to Jogjakarta and Malang. Its the first time any GB girls team is going!
Fourth, finally approval has been granted for us to send money to build a training centre and accomodation in Sumatra.

I think that God is so faithful, and He is kind because he allowed me to see some fruits. But more so than that, it has taught me to wait, He has His own timing and seasons for different things. :D I struggle a lot within letting go, but this morning my colleague's note really encouraged me to trust God in different seasons of our lives. Learning to live each day at a time, each day is an adventure of seeing how things unfold and fit into His sovereign plan.

You Are So Faithful
Lenny Leblanc
Like the sun that rises everyday
You are so faithful, Lord, You are faithful
Like the rain that You send
And every breath that I breathe
You are so faithful, Lord

Like a rose that comes alive every spring
You are so faithful, Lord, You are so faithful
Like the life that You give to every beat of my heart
You are so faithful, Lord

I see the cross and the price You had to pay
I see the blood that washed my sins away
And in the midst of the storm
Through the wind and the waves
You'll still be faithful, You'll still be faithful
When the stars refuse to shine and time is no more
You'll still be faithful, You'll still be faithful, Lord

thoughts thoughts thoughts..

I really havent been blogging for a long long while!
I'm doing fine...been engaged in a couple of interesting and new opportunities. :) I'm happy... Mentally and emotionally engaged...
I've been journaling more often than blogging!

A couple of thoughts:

1. Reflecting on different situations I experience in life, I realise that there's no right or wrong person, we are each the best of ourselves. What do I mean? In terms of relationships, job fits etc, we each come with different qualities and skill sets that makes us attractive to each other or to the task at hand. Hence if I don't get a job, or I don't end up with someone, I'm still the best of who I am. I'm not less than someone else, rather I am special and unique.

2. I'm blessed to see the fruits of my labour in the office, as projects are starting to take form, and schools are starting to get excited about Indonesia! :D I'm so thankful that God allowed this to take place. Relationships with people has also improved tremendously. Indeed, labour takes time to bear fruit. Don't give up if you are in a hard place.

Nothing else much to say...for now. :D Shall elaborate more abt new opptys when they become more firmed up!
Happy that CNY hols are coming up!