It helps to have frens!

I had a very good sat and sun...spent time with some really good frens, and thank God for them, who really encourage me too.
I caught a movie on sat with mavis and xinying. It was "Be with me"..an arty film by eric khoo. The show was really great, it was silent most of the time, and also filmed some of the most mundane of things, like an old man at his shop selling stuffs and cooking dinner for his wife...two girls smsing each other and in the chat room...a security guard admiring some pretty lady in the building (and I swear that the building they were filming is my office-capital tower) but it was within the mundanity that the message hit right home to the heart. Cos I guess all can identify with it. The theme of love, the search for love and wat really defines love. Also the meaning of life..the mundanity and how everyone seeks to find meaning in something.. or love is smthing that sustains life and gives meaning to it.
Well, yeah, the msg really hit home, and ofcos I also feel really sad for the security guard who has loads of emotions within him but is not good at expressing them. And also the love of the old couple...the old man cooking for his wife, caring for him...which expressed the meaning of true love. Not loads of sex or I love Yous but a simple demonstration thru actions.

As ple seek to find meaning in life, they seek in from all the different places isn't it? Whether it is clubbing or admiring someone.

Yups...and so it was a great movie and all, and it was nice seeing Xinying and Mavis. Xinying who is now a psychologist at Mindef, while mavis is a firewoman! Don't play play...mavis gotto go for "NS" with the guys...and do jungle trekking. I guess as we grow older, our lives tend toward diff directions. Its like seeing someone familiar yet not so familiar kinda feeling..

Yeah and I had a lovely dinner with Huiyun plus a little shopping..to celebrate her bday! It was a really really good chat at this restaurant called "dian xiao er" selling herbal duck, and we had the set meal for 2. I like the way that Huiyun always listens to me..and cares for me. Heh...it kinda filled up my love tank again. =>

Yups..so aniwae today I hanged out with huiru and jeryn after service and it was good walking ard and chatting abt ourselves and our cgs. And really thank God for the frenship. :)

Okie...tmr is another day of work! I pray for a good week ahead.

tired...

Had a rather bad day today, I think that the path gets lonelier as u choose the narrow path. Who doesn't need frens to pour sorrows to? SIgh.
I feel really misunderstood. And I know that I shouldn't focus on the negative, but again and again the words replay in my mind and its like..I come to the threshold of my endurance and suddenly it just broke. Its like Not You too? You whom I love?
:(
O well this is a list of incoherent sentences that probably don't really link.

Ok, pick urself up and be strong! Shoo..!

Whine

I had quite a bad day today. It was really Blah. And I had to control my temper and pray for more patience. If u guys know me, I'm usually rather patient right? Today I was really challenged. Guess the series of events that happened were overwhelming.
I just wanted to run from it all.
I ask God...why me? Is it because God, I am more patient, that's why you think that I can handle it? sighz.

Day went kinda well in the end.
Had a surprise phonecall just now fr CP, who said his mum is sponsoring the function room for our event. Abt 80 bucks. Wow, so happy...praise God.

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Yesterday nite I had dinner with kel! His bday today. Was q a last min thingy, cos I was going orchard to get some presents..bday and watnots.And then called him to wish him happy bday! Realised that he was free, so we had korean food. => And it was nice..also had mud pie. YEah, and I got a couple of presents. I feel happy buying gifts for ple, love to see the smile on their faces. I think so far my prezzie choosing is quite good.

Been also thinking abt this other topic called love. Well recently a fren confided in me abt how he really liked this girl, but this girl wasn't interested. Hmm...Can love reach a stage whereby that u just love someone not expecting return? And also, when you love a person, but u noe that not being together with that person is better for both of you, would u control your emotions and let it be? Heh. Not easy to do eh...And also u've to cross ur fingers and hope that the other party doesn't express interest, cos u noe that it will surely tempt u away.
I think tho that I've matured a lot. And I guess I am learning to LOVE..unselfishly. And what it really means to love someone. Whether boy-girl relationships or frenships..to give of urself, wanting the best for the other. And also trusting the best of the other. Being secure abt urself in the eyes of the other. And ofcos smtimes frenships can turn sour. O well, gotto pick up the pieces and move on. Life has to go on right?
But I strongly believe in this, that one must first learn to love himself/herself. Cos, his/her identity cannot be founded on other ple.

Yups and so this little thing called love, which everyone of us is searching for. Romanticised in dramas. Yet in real life not as simple, and may be even more mundane. HEH. Simply just enjoying each other's company, sitting next to each other, whether across a candlelight dinner, or going to Sim Lim to shop for CDs, or going to the beach or watever.

And since today is mid autumn, happy midautumn. :)
May all lovers be together!

AHHH MY week!

My week can be summarised in ONE word..
Exhausting.

Had a super tiring week. Rushing stuffs and had to rush thru lunch..and went home late. SIghz. Super tired after I get home. And NO motivation for work in the morning! Very jialat. Very stress over deadlines at the start of the week. And today we had our group hsewarming party-cos we moved to a new floor. Then my colleague, Agnes and I had to plan for it, and be the Emcees for it. So today we rehearsed and talked some nonsense..heh. FIrst time I am emcee u noe! But being a cgl helps. Cos less stage fright. :) And we played a game too..which I led. It was the money game! :P

I was sleeping as usual on the way to cg today. Kept dosing and leaning on this middle aged guy next to me. AH! :( Its the kinda sleep whereby u open ur eyes..and the next min u are dozing off again. And so I smsed Huiru to PRAY for me during cg, cos I was seriously zonked out.
And when I reached, to my horrors of horrors, my mbr..who was playing guitar for first time for the cg was late...and reached at 740, 5 min b4 cg started. And there were visitors from Korea-a pastor and 2 others. AHH!!
BUT..
CG was so WONDERFUL. I felt the fire of God pour down, I felt warm all over. And at the end, there was a gushing wind. Well..I'm not sure if it is supernatural wind, like Acts. But I felt something happened. A visitation of the Lord.

Tired..but God brought me thru the week. Immensely GRATEFUL for that.

hies

Hie!
I had a good day today. Went out with my cg mbrs, 3 young boys(ok men?)..heh...and we went to racky the chalet we wanted to book! SO small lei..:(
Went to NAFA after that with a fren to see arts exhibition. Q cool, but not v big scale. =) Happy... went to a cosy restaurant for dinner then walked ard..then to sim lim where i got my wireless lan card!
I got a new book to read-The curious incident of the dog in the night time. =>

Okies...yeah i have decided to sleep early tonite...accumulated lack of rest.
BYE

Materialism!! aahh!!

Hiz!
Went for a photoshoot today. Cos gonna appear in some publicity material for NUS Biz sch...targetting the JCs! Yeah..and kinda had a makeup artist do makeup for me! Yeah..and only have ONE pic in the bklet. SIgh, brought like 3 sets of clothes but ended up wearing the sports wear and din even wear my own T-shirt! Cos it was white and they said I had to wear another colour one..
Yups..
kinda pleased with the makeup so came home and took some pics of myself. ;p

Later met two great pals! Second round of my bday celebration. I feel so blessed. =>

Yups..and then I signed up for HSBC credit card with Sam. Heh.. have freebies..also bought makeup and a pair of shoes. SIgh how? Ever since the SE forum ended I've been doing a lot of stuffs like shopping and watching TV. Yups..like Superstar! And I like JunYang! He is the BEST.

Really kinda very happy to rest and relax for some time and to recharge. But I must really watch my spending habits and save..in the midst of building fund in church as well. ;P Anyway it really feels VERY good to have ur own income and to buy things to pamper urself after long wking hrs..and the weekends are the best!

Thank you for blessing me!

Had a great CG on friday nite. => The anointing and God's presence. B4 cg I was sleeping like a log on the bus, and once I reached, God really strengthened me. :) Yups..relying on His strength every single day.

Now I'm physically very TIRED. Gonna read my bible, pray, prepare BS and sleep. Take care folks.